And with that I walked out of the club, not really knowing what I was doing or where I was going. I found a lonely railing to lean against and catch my breath. For some reason my heart was still pounding in my chest. I felt as if I was high on some particular substance and no longer had control over my body.

I sighed, trying to return my breathing back to a normal rhythm. Thoughts were racing through my mind incoherently and they were all focused on Amelia. I mean, who does she think she is anyway? Kissing my in a public place with out even asking my permission, after I just told her I was straight! And what kind of kissing was that, it more like foreplay than anything else. I was so angry at that moment, all other emotions disappeared and I became a tight ball of hot infuriation.

Trixie?

I looked up, sending daggers to the owner of the voice. Striking them down before they even had a chance to defend themselves.

I turned away from Amelia, I didn’t want to look at her right then, it just made me more angry.

Why are you so upset? she asked tentatively, moving towards me.

My teeth were clenched together to stop myself from shouting at this woman. I had a considerably explosive temper which I found rather hard to control, especially since I had given up cigarettes. I had lost a lot of friends and all my lovers from my short fuse, the only person which could handle it was Lizzie. And that was only because she usually ended up pinning my down and using violence to shut me up.

Im sorry if I offended you, but I honestly don’t think I’ve done anything wrong. Amelia continued after another silence.

She was closer, I could hear from her voice that she was standing closer. I didn’t want to turn round, the last thing I wanted was to look back into those eyes. I was so confused by all the emotions swirling around my body that I could’ve done anything right then. I could of turned round and shouted and screamed at her, I could of broke down into tears and I could have grabbed her and kissed her.