Trixie please, tell me what youre thinking.

I took a deep breath and turned round. Amelia stood a couple of paces away from me, her expression concerned. The midnight sky cast shadows over her slim body, highlighting certain areas; her lips, her right hand playing idly with the side of her belt and the dark hair which fell in a silk wave to her shoulders.

Again I was at a loss for words, there was absolutely no moment when I was around Millie that I felt either in control or comfortable. This was strongly contradicted however, by an urgency to be close to her; to touch her, to hear her. Never before had one person caused such turmoil for me, I always tried to maintain an ample amount of power in situations. This was no longer the case.

What happened earlier, Im sorry if you thought I was taking advantage I got the impression that you didn’t mind.

I didnt exactly have a choice. I said, surprising myself at how calm my voice sounded.

Amelia looked hurt and confused, which I completely understood because I wasn’t making much sense. I knew she had given me plenty of opportunity to stop her or push her away. But I wasn’t exactly just going to admit that. That would be the same as admitting that I found her attractive and that I wanted to kiss her. And Im straight so Im not going to admit anything along those lines now, am I…?

Ok, I think weve gotten off on the wrong foot. Now Im not going to deny that I don’t like you Trixie but I understand now that it was wrong to assume you would feel the same for me, even though I knew you were straight. So can we start again, put all this behind us? Were both fans of art, so let me take you out somewhere so I can show you that I can be your friend and convince you that Im not going to start humping your leg or anything.

I knew she wasnt being completely honest, I dont know why because I didnt know her well enough to assume whether she was a liar or not. It was just an inkling that niggled away at the back of my mind. Or maybe it was a hope or desire, at that point I really did not know.

I would like that Amelia and Im sorry for over reacting. To say this is all new to me would be a severe understatement, I should have just said no then none of this would have happened.

Amelia held my gaze.

So why didn’t you, say no?

I opened my mouth to answer but nothing came out. I wish I could of told her why; because I didn’t want to say no. It was that simple, but a ***** of a lot more harder to say.

I, I dont know.

Wow that was lame, I couldnt believe nothing more convincing came to mind.

Amelia took a step towards me, I instinctively took a step back, bringing me up against the railing. I was feeling more than a little bit trapped at that moment.

I dont know why, but theres something about you Trixie. Something I just cant put my finger on. she took another step towards me, her mysterious eyes holding mine captive within her stare. And no matter how much I tell myself that youre straight and slightly homophobic, I cant seem to convince myself that youre not feeling the same as me. she stopped directly in front of me. We were so close I could feel her warm breath tickle my cheek. I held my own breath, ready to prepare myself for what ever was coming next. But like I said, Im not going to make you do something you so obviously don’t want to do.