For a long time, arguments kept us going.  Day in and day out it was arguments all the way.  We’d be lucky if we weren’t arguing for more than ten minutes.  I used to get a kiss from her or me giving her a kiss once I walk through the front door years ago.  But now, it was all but a memory.  I guess the arguments kept us going.  And when there was nothing left to argue about, we were left with two options.  To either work it out or as a last resort, leave each other be. 

Here I am.  In an empty room.  I was lying in bed with my eyes open.  It was dark.  I blinked a few times just to focus and get used to the lighting.  Once I could focus on the surroundings, I saw an unfamiliar place.  The walls are grey, the curtains drawn shut.  Where am I again?  Ah yes.  I’m in New York.  Now why am I here?  I closed my eyes again.  Think.  Think.  Think.  Oh yes, Franklin sent me here for the conference. 

The lights were out but the flickering of the TV screen helped me see.  There was no sound coming from the TV.  I remember I have muted the sound when I went to sleep.  Why did I have the TV on?  I figured if I have it on, I wouldn’t feel so lonely in this king sized bed.  I looked at the clock, it read 3.20AM.  I checked my cell for messages.  It says I have one unread message.  I checked the message

This time last year I wouldn’t have thought I’d be here.  I’m alone in this hotel room, not only with the cell phone connecting me to her, but my heart too. 

One thing I learn from the hard time we were together, is that no matter what happen, no matter how bad things are, and no matter when things look like they’re failing, do not lose hope.  Do not lose faith.  You just need to believe in yourselves.  Believe in love.  Believe in the relationship, the partnership, the friendship that you two have built.  Because only through that will you have the will to fight for what you have, and what you desire.  That’s the other common error in a failed relationship; no hope and faith.

I lay my head back on the pillow holding my cell close to my heart.  I love her, I miss her, I need her, I wish she was here lying next to me, holding me to sleep.  Hope.  Faith.  Believe.  She’s the reason I’m here.  She’s the reason I’m still breathing.  She’s the reason I’m smiling.  She’s the reason I’m happy.  And if I can’t have her here now, I’ll have her in my dreams.

I read the message again and smiled.  I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep with thoughts of her in my head.