”You need to leave”

This,  I was not expecting considering only 10 minutes ago she was saying that I would leave her  and as I glanced up into her hazel orbs she pressed her lips against my forehead ”We can’t keep doing this to each other, Bette. No matter how we feel about each other. We always cause trouble and destruction”

”That’s a little over the top” I counted

”I’m a bad person, Bette” she shook her head ”I should never have let my feelings bubble above the surface. I knew you were off limits”

I reached for her hand that laid on my stomach and played freely with her fingers ”If we were such bad people, we would have continued… this, without any guilt what-so-ever”

”You say things like that but I continue to wonder how you can live with yourself” How I can live with myself? She must have felt a shift in my body because she brought my hand up to her lips in a effort to free me from aggravation ”I didn’t mean that as harsh as it sounded, Bette. I’m sorry”

”It’s fine. I just wasn’t sure what you were implying and the answer to your question is that I don’t.. I can only try be a better person every day and I am still dealing with the consequences of my betrayal. Carly looks at me sometimes and swear she is thinking the worst about me and it’s possibly because I think the worst in myself” I replied in less than a whisper

”I wish I could see you in your dress” Tina mumbled mindlessly at me.

At the time, she wasn’t too keen on me and having to sit though dress fittings was not her idea of a good time but that was the first time she looked at me different, seeing me in another light. I highly doubt she would admit it but the way she looked at me was enticing and elicit.

Not even Carly had looked at me like that before.

It was the first time that I saw a glint of beauty inside her.

”I chose that one because you like it” I added ”You never did tell me the truth about that day when you ran off” I left it open for her to explain but she never did and even though I know why, I still would have liked her to divulge her side ”That’s what I thought” I chuckled lightly