I might not be perfect, but she accepts me as I am. I’ve tried writing to help inform myself, but I don’t really see that I’ve done what I set out to do.

When I mentioned this to my beautiful Mistress, however, she assured me and made me proud to have these concerns and ideas and curiosities. Her opinion means so much to me that it brightened my day completely. While I thought it wasn’t best to continue on, because I just don’t really see how I can keep this lying around the house for much longer (both of us being so secretive about this), I still wanted to finish this all up with a last part.

What has changed since I started writing this? Hmm …

I would have to say that I feel more confident in asking my Mistress what she really enjoys boldly, whereas I would be shier about it before. It was really nice to try something we hadn’t really done before, even as cautious as we were. I found out a lot about things she might be like, and that gave me so much happiness that I can’t even explain it. Also, I feel even more pride about being submissive lately.

Questions I still have for Tina – the world’s most incredible Domme? Mmm …

–     When did you first realize that you wanted to dominate someone?

–     What is something you’ve always wanted to do with me but never thought you could? To me?

–     Do I seem different from before the time we enjoyed this lifestyle?

I guess I thought it would be easier to wrap all of this up for myself, but now it’s been much more difficult than I thought.

… Let’s see if she’ll answer some of these questions!

First things first, I will say that you asked me very kindly, so here I am with your little diary. Hmm, what intriguing questions you have for me here.

Let’s see.

When did I first realize I wanted to be dominant? I would have to say that the very first time … was realizing the basis in most of my fantasies. It was always me controlling someone else, or getting them to do something, or tying them up, etc. It was very clear, but I think it took me quite some time to really realize that.