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Feelings… Chapter 11
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But Bette heard the break in her voice, even though Tina had almost whispered her response. She reached out to Tina and said, "Please, Tina…look at me. I need to explain."
“You’ve gotta be kidding me!” Tina was incredulous. In a jail cell? You didn’t touch each other? What the fuck, Bette!”
“Tina, I know…I couldn’t believe it myself! But I swear that’s what happened. So of course, it was mighty awkward having you meet her when we all got released, and I thought I would die when you offered her a ride home!”
“So then, what else happened?”
“Some morning after that, I saw her arrive at the CAC parking lot just after I got out of my car. Next thing I knew, I was sitting in her car, asking her to take me somewhere… I hadn’t planned it at all—I just had a sudden compulsion to do it. She took me to a bed and breakfast. I was so not thinking, I almost charged the room to my AmEx card, but she stopped me. I couldn’t keep my hands off her before we got in the room—even before we made it all the way up the stairs! We spent the morning there…”
“So, what happened?”
“Oh, Tina…please…you don’t want to know the details!”
“I already told you–I need to know! Then again…I know more than enough, Bette…I guess I’m just…floored. So…things were that bad between us at that point? You felt so distant from me that you had those kinds of feelings for her? Oh, my…"
Bette understood the impact this revelation was having on Tina. She hated that Tina now knew, and she didn’t know what she could say, if anything, to fix it. But before she had a chance to consider her response, Tina whipped around and sarcastically said, "So, that’s why you went running straight into her arms instead of coming to look for me that night after Provocations! You were in love with her! That explains a lot…I told you not to contact me until you could guarantee that you were through with her, and I didn’t hear a peep out of you for a whole month! Then when you came to me, turns out you had fucked her all night before telling her that I was ‘the love of your life’! BULLSHIT, Bette! Now I know it was all bullshit! What happened, Bette? Did she get tired of you and tell you to get out of her bed? Could you not satisfy her? Did she get sick of you having to always be in control?”
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Great update baby……..PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not have us waiting so long. BTW isnt that Bette’s house Tina asking her to leave from?
Oh, Arr! you’ve done it again girl! ya know I love it when Candace is in fan fic, bad as it might be. Don’t make me wait too long.*wink*
Wow ! That was intense indeed ! And I must say I would have never predicted it would have ended this way, with Tina asking Bette to leave. That was a great twist, anyway. I love the direction you’re taking this story, Arr. I love this dialogue and your insight into these character’s psyches, especially since Tina’s mind is still a great mystery as far as the show is concerned. Well, not that we can all read Bette like an open book of course, she’s a very complex character, but compared to Tina… Yeah, well, you know what I mean… Now, I need to admit that I would love for Bette to find the courage to tell Tina what really happened with Candace, not the “technical” details, but what she had in mind when she was with her and why she kept seeing her for a whole month after Tina found out and what appealed to her in Candace ( because she still hasn’t answered that one if my memory serves me right ). Was it her confidence ? Was it because she seemed so different from Tina ? Was it just because she was the first person that had showed some interest in her at a time when Bette was very vulnerable and insecure ? Did her biraciality have anything to do with that ? I still think that the affair was a self-destructive “move” from Bette. She couldn’t find any answers or any solution anymore. There seemed to be no way out and she was so desperate, so stressed out,… Everything had become so complicated that, at some point, she probably felt that by getting out of that relationship – a relationship that was becoming so heavy to bear alone – ( ’cause I think she believed she was carrying their relationship alone after Tina lost the baby ), she would get away from all her problems and anxiety… And what better and easier way for such a serial monogamist to sabotage her committed relationship than having an affair with the first person who was there, the first person she came across and showed some interest in her ( thus imo the fact that Candace was a carpenter ) ?Anyway, just a personal theory. So sorry for the rambling, I guess I got a little carried away… LOL !Actually, the point I was trying to make was just that I love the fact that you chose to get to the bottom of things and although your chapter was not very long, I loved it and I really hope you’re going to keep them ( really ) talking this way. They need to go there… Where it hurts. And the sooner the better. ‘Cause in the end it will be healthy for the both of them. If Tina wants to know more about the affair, I think Bette should tell her in all honesty and same goes the other way around. Tina needs to ask herself where those feelings for men are coming from all of a sudden. All right, I’m getting a little too carried away once again, but I definitely hope we’ll soon have the pleasure of reading your take on those things. Keep up the fantastic job, Arr. And thanks for sharing your talent with us.
yes we care if you posted,but not soo long next time please.and the ladies needs to listen to each other even if it hurts to hear it so they can start building up the trust again.p.p.s.
Arr, you know on one hand it is difficult to relive these moments or delve into these conversations particularly when considering where TPTB have the ladies now in their arc. Yes, they dangled a bit of hope this season and the fact is that they do have to have “this conversation”. One thing is clear that they have to be at a place to even be able to have this conversation without it totally being destructive. As I digested this leg of your story, it is evident that in Season 4 they sooo weren’t ready for it…but I think they are getting there and hopefully getting ready. I still don’t get why did B stayed with Candy for so long? I get the feeling that it wasn’t about Candace but about escaping to something that was easier…less burdensome…less demanding…hiding out…getting lost…hmmm….Looking forward to your next post!! PPS
Well That went well. Glad 2 C U back.
I am surprised that Bette did not tell Tina to leave. I am beginning to think that if this had taken place on the show then Tina would never have left. Even though this is intense they are at least talking and screaming.
Damn this is bad and hope they calm down!
Ok, I wanted to just leave ‘Wow…’ but BaTF threw me off with the Xena comment…
=O
yaaay! angst. fantastic. though, i’ve never understood why bette continued to be punished about the candace affair so long after the fact, AND yet still never really took responsibility for it verbally. it seemed to be the nail in tibette’s coffin. anyway, great post!
whoa that was intense! i can see a really long talk afterwards. im excited for the next one :)
Glad to see you posting gain. But damn, I didn’t expect Tina to kick Bette to the curb. PPS
Wow its been a long time since you posted.What an intense chapter. Tina needs to calm herself down and take some responsibility here and why is she asking Bette to leave.PPS I want to see what happens next.
Harsh!
they have to listen to each other…it reminds me of episode in Xena, when Xena and Gabrielle were yelling at each but not listening and it almost ruined them…i hope tina will change her mind
Arr!! SOOOO SORRY for getting to comment sooo late…no exceptions except,,,10 lashes with a wet noodle!! This was great as usually. I love how you’re building the drama up, it’s great! And hopefully you’ll post another one very soon…but i know you’re messing with another fic with a ship that will…alarm the hell out of some people…LOL! keep it posting!!
I’m ashamed, I was always looking out for chapter 11 of this story…after awhile I gave up looking for it on a daily basis and problably missed reading this chapter. I’ve read today a post of you in the new thread here called ‘constructive criticism’ and that’s what made me look for it again. I was pleased to find 2 new chapters written more than a year ago, I didn’t need to re read the story because what’s been said in it was still clearly in my mind. It was indeed my all time favority story, one of those who left me sometimes speechless and sometimes shook my life. I loved reading your insight in the souls of both our girls…I love how you show how deep someone can be wounded by infidelity but also what caused that infedility. There are indeed always 2 sides of the medal. Of course Bette came and of course she came hard, she wanted to numb herself, she tried to give strength to Tina, she was eating her own pain at that time and she was being refused. After they came back together how could she have talked about what happened because Tina refused her again. I understand both parties. Tina’s been self-concious on that scar, well I have a similar experience…I have two large scars on my body, one from between my breasts till my navel and one from my left thigh over my belly to my right thigh. My wife ignores them she acts like those are not there, she avoids looking at them and touching them, when she touches them by accident she excuses herself and then I just want to run away from her. Being in a relationship is to give some and to take some but when you feel that you have to take all the shit and still have to give the best of you…well then it’s time to evaluate things and TALK about them.