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First, Last, & Forever? (Version 2.0 – Chapter 18)
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“It’s too late for what I want, Tee, which is for none of this to have happened. So yes, please just tell me. I need to know.” Bette replied softly, torn between her desire to forget that Helena ever existed and her need to help Tina through whatever was upsetting her. Factoring in her guilt at being the cause of their separation, Bette also felt on some level that hearing all of this was appropriate punishment for her infidelity.
Tina took a breath before launching into her explanation. She knew she would be as vague as she could about the details to spare Bette as much as possible.
“When we were in the pool, there was this moment when I turned away from Helena. I was trying to decide if I could go through with it. She moved on me kind of the same way you did tonight.” Tina took in a quick breath, knowing her next words would likely cut through Bette’s heart. “Tonight when you started kissing me when I was facing the pool wall, that moment came flooding back to me.”
“Great. That’s just fucking great, Tina.” Bette’s anger and frustration had finally found their way to the surface.
“Like I said, it’s not what you think. It’s not what it sounds like.” Tina moved closer to Bette, placing her hands on Bette’s face. “That night, that moment, it was a turning point for me. It was in that moment that I decided to walk away from you, to walk away from us. When you kissed me tonight, when I felt myself in that same situation, I realized the depth of my mistake. I wished I could take back everything that happened between Helena and me because you were the only person I ever wanted to kiss me like that. I needed you to erase the memory of that night, but I had to allow that memory into my mind in order for that to happen.” Tina let out a frustrated sigh. “I’m sorry, Babe, I know this can’t be making any sense.”
Knowing her lover as well as she did, Bette understood completely what Tina was trying to tell her. She understood Tina’s need for comfort and reassurance in the wake of Bette’s ultimate failure. She also comprehended Tina’s need to re-live that moment so she could take ownership of it, of her own sense of failure. Bette knew exactly how Tina felt.
“It’s okay, Tee, I think I get it. And I really don’t think I can listen to any more of the details of your relationship with that woman. At least not now.” Bette finally allowed herself to look Tina in the eyes, taking in the sight of the hazel orbs watching her for any sign that they could get past this moment. “I just need to know one thing.”
“Okay. What do you want to know?” Tina asked softly, relieved to see the fear fading from her lover’s eyes.
“Did you ever love her?” Bette asked, her voice wavering.
“Never. Part of me wanted to, in the beginning, when I wanted to hurt you. But I never loved her. It wasn’t her fault, though.” Tina felt Bette flinch on hearing those words, but she needed to finish her thought. “I couldn’t love Helena, or anyone else, because my heart wasn’t mine to give her. It always belonged to you, Bette.” Tina felt the hot sting of tears against her cheeks as she prayed that Bette would believe the truth.
Bette said nothing as she processed Tina’s words. In her heart, she knew Tina was being honest with her. Silently, Bette stood from her chair and walked the few steps back towards the pool before casting her towel back into the chair. She dove into the dimly lit water, disappearing into the calm, resurfacing at the edge of the pool. She reached out a hand to Tina and smiled as she called out to her wife, echoing Tina’s own words.
“Aren’t you going to join me?”
(To Be Continued…)
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That was a rollercoaster chapter! Great story, Steph! PPS
hARD TIMES BUT NICE ENDING, THX AND MORE
As hard as it was I’m glad Bette was able to sit and listen to Tina’s explanation. Great chapter pps.
Now we’re talking! Great one!
just sex is just great!! thanks.
That was ahard chapter for Bette to hear but she needed to understand Tina’s feelings about what had happened. I’m glad it ended well for them. Great work Steph.PPS
That had to hurt, big time! But now, it’s out in the open–let them move on!
your story is great, but it sounds vaguely familiar…no offense. PPS
I am so proud of Bette. She really has changed for the better. PPS!!
I like your explanation of Tina’s and Helena’s relationship, Steph. I think you’re right that Tina tried to love Helena, but wasn’t free to do so. Love the story.
Ahhh wow, that was a hard one for sure. You were brave in your honesty, when you wrote how difficult it is to move forward if you don’t honestly reveal some painful moments. In order for Bette to really accept Tina back completely, to trust their relationship, and move forward, she unfortunately is needing to hear the ghosts of the past. Tina, knowing that what she will reveal has the potential of only hurting Bette more, hesitates, because she hates to pull so much of the pain to the surface. While she struggles to offer enough to satisfy Bette’s curiousity, Bette wants every detail. Wow, I’ve been in a similar situation, and all I’ll say is you really have written this brilliantly. It’s very true to life. If you cannot move forward with full honesty with one another, you will fail and you will crumble. Sometimes making that road smooth again, isn’t about finding the right detour, but rolling your sleeves up and putting alot of work into making the road you will travel together, safer, stroner, and more secure. Thanks Steph. Ready for the next one!!! : -)))
Very deep chapter. I’d like to see them continue their trysts in the pool!
Wow that was awesome and glad they talk about it and its good now, now let see some more hot coming please. Please post soon, thanks!
WOW!!!!!! Glad Bette stuck around and heard Tina out. But you are still a TEASE for ending it the way you did. Thanks PPS
I’m new to this sight but i just wanted to say I am absolutely enthralled!!!!!!! your writing has held me captive. cant wait for more!!
Very good communication skills used in this scene. It could have gone in totally different direction but both allowed the other their own thoughts. That is a very good step in the right direction.
Great chapter, I love that you are making these two actually face their demons, hard in the short term but it’s got to be benficial in the long term.