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First Year- Chapter 8
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She pulled one hand off my face and interlaced out fingers and tried to reassure me with the comment, “Well I can understand why you would feel like you failed, but if it’s any consolation, I was your first girlfriend.”
I sighed deeply and looked at our interlaced fingers. This might be harder than I thought it would be. Carmen’s and my relationship was never defined. I never viewed her as my girlfriend, as much as I viewed her as someone I played and discovered with. I was afraid that she might see this as more than I saw it. I tried to explain, “Carmen…”
She released my fingers then put a finger over my lips. “Let’s not make this more than it is. I don’t want to stress you out. We were just having fun, just like the old days. Nothing more, nothing less. I’m not expecting anything more from you. I know you have a commitment to Dylan. I’m okay with it. So let’s not make a big deal out of this.”
I hugged her and said, “Thank you.”
She took all my fears away. She had been my friend for as long as I could remember. The sex was just a side benefit. And a very pleasant benefit it was. Everything might have been okay between me and Carmen but it still was a bit of a problem for my relationship with Dylan. We were separated and God only knows when we would see each other again. And here was Carmen, my goodness; yes, here was Carmen in all her curvaceous glory, lying naked next to me to tempt me until I could find some way to resist her. As much as I thought I could lie to both of us and say it would be the last time, I didn’t dare say it. I didn’t even want to waste the energy. Maybe as long as Carmen and I had and an understanding that this was simply about the sex, then we would be okay. Dylan and I on the other hand, that was another problem. I needed to examine what it said to me about my ideas of commitment. As I thought about Dylan, I realized while Carmen would be okay with it and a part of me would be okay with it, that part of me that loved Dylan would not be okay with a going sexual relationship with Carmen.
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Good grief Squirl, you really put the heat on Helena last chapter…sheesh, but I still can’t believe she went there. Jenny was as useless at unknowingly helping to keep Helena as she is becoming on the small screen version…(and I USED to find her quite interesting….a few seasons ago) This line sooooo is not a good sign: “…that part of me that loved Dylan would not be okay with a going sexual relationship with Carmen…” Only part of her loves Dylan?…wow! So you say its like a post-doc on steriods, eh? HA! Hmmm… Mr. Wichnia, Tasha and Dana appear…Please I beggeth you…if you have a heart, Squirl no frackin’ Alice sandwich! Lady Chaiken is killing me with that malarkey! lol! PPS
I am laughing a sinister laugh as I wonder who H will encounter next!! can’t wait until your next post!!!
Gotta luv Carmen…yeap I know you’re in love with Dylan…but hey the sex was fantastic wasn’t it? Wanna do it again sometime? I can pack a special Helena bag and all. Talk about a dream friends with benefits scenerio!!! Geez. First I find out I missed out on all the sex on internship…now I miss out on a Carmen friendship TOO!!! There simply is no justice in the world… Fun chapter Squirl! Thanks for posting so soon!
Enough all ready Helena just brake up with Dylan and do the single thing. Why stay in a relationship when there’s so much chaos in your life? I really think Helena thought she was in love with Dylan until she got in the real world and saw Carmen again. Dylan was the first stable thing in Helena’s life and I know she doesn’t want to lose her but like I said Helena’s is to much of a horndog to last in a long distance relationship. Until Helena can find some stableness and be on the same field as her lover she should go the single route. Helena always seem to led with her libido and not her heart.
hahaha hahahha look what Squirl wrote “Hopefully it won’t be too much or too boring” hehehehehehe I’m pretty sure you could write yada yada yada and still make it fun and interesting, I’m feeling kinda old tonight so I’m going to say what’s on my mind and probably get into trouble but in my mind youth, schooling and realationships has one word out of place, guess which one??????????Thank you, Md, aka Oma
Oma- Very clever….It is like the triangle Candace gave Bette when she was talking about the carpentry work. Couldn’t have it fast, good and cheap. Only can have 2. Same here, of the three you can only have two at any one time. In the case of this story, you have schooling(their internship) and youth but you can’t have relationships. For old fogies like us you can have school and relationships. Or you can be like one of the techs that works with me, her daughter has youth and relationship but no school…..It took me a minute to get WTF you were talking about….Nope you might be old but you didn’t get into trouble…Next chappie maybe tomorrow. This daily shit(oops) will be over soon. Maybe I’ll just slow down to qod.(For the docs, nurses and pharmacists out there. You’ll know what that means…
If Helena and Dylan breaks up Plleeeeeeeeeaaasssee send her to me. She is one of the sexy women,Dylan,heck is so,so, sexy. Then Helena,love her also. I live in a small town of 39,000 people in Tx and I promise I will take care of her. Lomg didtance relationships are hard on both partys. Either be very good,or dont do it. Stress these young Dr’s dont need right now. LetsGet Bette out and playing the field.
Hey there S, loved how guilty and then not so guilty Helena was with Carmen,,LOL. I mean Carmen is one hot lady and so is Helena and so freinds w/benefits sounds good to me,,,did I actually write that down,,LOL but I do believe in being true to your love, no matter what, but sometimes it’s not easy and life brings things to you and make you wonder is this the one, or maybe it’s someone else? great chapter S,,
Uh, phone sex AND Carmen? Hmmm…Cardiologists? I know Endocrinologists thanks to my diabetes, but I know Cardiologists from my echo training. I’m aware that a couple of them had to go to anger management training, so you make them behave! I will spare the general public a scary/interesting story I witnessed involving one of them, I’ll just say it didn’t involve anger, at least directly. Just lots and lots and lots of ego.
You have a very easy, engaging writing style. The story flows b/c you obviously have experience in what your writing about . It’s almost like a journal w/dialogue. Intriguing and in the moment. Funny, too.
Laughs. I’m sorry I haven’t commented but I have to say, Squirly-Whirly, I do love the hint of Grey’s Anatomy this story has. It’s really just right up your alley of expertise. (: And with the very interesting pairings you have decided to match up in this one, I just can’t wait to see where you take all of us. (: PPS!
Hey Squirl, sorry I haven’t commented for a few chapters. This is getting really interesting and so many characters are floating around. I reckon that Carmen spells trouble for fidelity, lol, but that is just obvious. I don’t know what to think… its hard to condemn Helena for her actions, but at the same time my moral compass just won’t let it go. I believe in honesty, she should just call Dylan and confess and then they should decide where to go from there… open relationship or a break. I pride myself on my self control, but even I have to admit that when there are so many people hitting on you and you are a very sexual person that that is REALLY hard to cope with. Can’t wait for the next one, I am excited to see Helena working with her uncle.