We finished dessert and I ran everything inside. When I came out there was Tina paddling in the water, ankle deep. I walked up behind her, she looked so beautiful in the moonlight. Shall, we ? I reach for her hand Do you mind Tee ? She doesnt mind at all is the response. We walk up along the beach holding hands and she paddles in the water, she doesnt comment it is cold so maybe it is not. Sleeping next to her and not, you know, not touching might be more difficult than I thought, but if that is her wish then that is how it will be. We walked for maybe half a mile when Tee surprised me by asking Bette, how do you feel about a swim ? We took our clothes off and ran into the water. There seemed to be moment where awkwardness and silence were present, like no one knew what to do next but it passed quickly. Tee looked beautiful with the baby and her full ***** in the moonlight. I suddenly began to wonder if this all moving to quickly, I thought we agreed that there would be no funny business. Tina must have able to read my thoughts Remember what we said Bette, just do what feels right, does this feel right to you ?. Bet your bloody bottom dollar it feels right. Bette: Yeah, Tee, it feels right I smile as my hand raises to my mouth. In the light Tina must have been able to see me wince. By now I am sure she punched me yesterday because it hurts like ***** and for the second time I am sporting a nasty bruise from my wife, not undeservingly. Tina : Bette, does it hurt ? She asks as she gently cups my chin in her hand and runs her thumb over the bruised part. Instinctively I looked down, ashamed doesnt begin to describe what I feel about the events that transpired yesterday and the reasons why are still not totally clear in my head why they happened. Bette ? Bette : Its a little sore (I lie) but Tee nowhere near as wounded as my pride. Tee, Im sorry I dont know what got into me Tina : Shhh baby, I know. But I am not to be consoled maybe it is because in the dark the pain, not the physical pain is more concealed. I mentally chastise myself, who treats any woman like that, least of all your pregnant wife. Tears of shame, pain and embarrassment escape and put my hand up to my mouth for the second time, like it might provide the answer. It is only when I look up I remember Tina is there with me, watching, I was so lost in my thoughts. Tina : Bette, where did you go baby ?. I didnt imagine it, she did call me baby. Bette : Just thinking Tee. Tina : Bette, we will talk about it but not tonight, that was the deal yeah ? I reach out for her as she wipes the tears away with one hand. Bette : That was the deal. I manage half a smile. Tina : Bette, thank you for a wonderful night, it reminded me of when we first got together. Bette : Tee, it was pleasure, I am glad you could join me. Tina thought wed better be getting back, and although time matters little around here I figured she must be getting tired. We took our time strolling back, the sea water had felt good, soothing. We arrived back at the shack. I suggested to Tee she has a shower to wash off the salt and sand. While she did that I pulled up the blinds in the bedroom so we could see the stars. I changed the sheets and pulled the covers up. I placed the flowers in there and took them out again incase it was misinterpreted. Tee came out the shower and I jumped in to have a quick one. When I came out Tee had packed up the pillows and blanket from the couch. I guess she meant it about sleeping together. Tina : Bette, shall we go to bed ? Suddenly I felt unsure, I looked at the couch, past her into the bedroom and at Tee, nope no answers there. She just waited. Finally I answered her Sure Tee. We wandered into the bedroom and I got into the side where the door was, if you stood looking from the foot of the bed that would be the right hand side and Tee got in the other side. I layed on my back, pretty much as close to the edge as I could get, my eyes open staring at the ceiling. Tee was lying on her back too. Tina : Baby, would you like to feel my tummy ? I reach over and rub Tinas tummy. To think I could have missed out on this. The rubbing was exacerbating the aching that was growing in my loins. Before I knew it Id stopped rubbing and got out of the bed. I raced out of the room and sat on the couch. Tina : Bette ? She was standing right there, Bette : tee, Im sorry maybe I am not ready for this. No, wait thats not true, Tee Im feeling a little, maybe the swim ans sleeping together, you know. Tina : Bette, me too, its OK. A wave of relief flooded me, I didnt want her to feel I was pushing but I didnt want her to think I didnt want to be there with her either. Tee grabbed my hand and we went back to bed. This time I rested my head on her tummy and she ran her fingers through my hair. It felt so good, so right. I looked out at the stars. I know we said we wouldnt talk about things but I had to know, if I never knew anything else about what wed been through I had to know why she didnt tell me about the baby. Bette : Tee I was thinking maybe what we should do is ask each other one question a day, in the morning and we can think about it during the day and when we think we have an answer, we can say. Doesnt have to be at the same time or anything like that. Tina : I am guessing you have a question. Bette : I do Tee, and I am guessing you have some questions too. Tina : The view here is amazing Bette, can I ask you to do something for me Bette ? Bette : Anything. Tina : Bette, I want you to start working on forgiving yourself. What is done, is done, lets look forward. Bette : Ohhhh, OK Tee, if you think that is for the best, I will work on it. Tina : Can I push it a bit Bette, I have two more requests Bette : Shoot Tee. Tina : Bette can you kiss me goodnight and after that can you hold me while I go to sleep. I kissed Tina and it was the sweetest, gentlest slow kiss. I indicated to her she should rest her head on my chest. I looked out at the stars while she slept. I think for the first time I believed there was a God, I asked for another chance and I got one. I thanked him for leaving this beautiful woman who was carrying out our baby her with me. Thank you, I will get it right this time I said looking out into that expanse. Tina : What baby ? Bette : Nothing Tee, sleep as I stroked her hair.