Bette walked into the house. She noticed all the lights were off except the light in their bedroom and in the baby’s room. She stood at the door watching Tina sleep for a few minutes. Walking into the Twins room she kissed them both. Please forgive me for running out on you. Mom was just so scared. I promise Ill never leave you again. Bette said with tears in her eyes.

Quietly Bette changed and climbed into bed. She could tell by the way Tina was sleeping that she had been crying and more than likely exhausted from worry because she had Bettes pillow still wrapped tightly in her arms.

Leaning over she placed a soft kiss on Tinas cheek, Bette whispered, Please forgive me. Tina flinched then tightened her grip on Bettes pillow. She started whimpering in her sleep. Saying something Bette couldnt quite make out. Bette leaned in closer to listen.

Tina was having a bad dream talking in her sleep. Bette come back, please dont leave me. I need you. Tina cried out raising her arms as if trying to reach Bette in her dream.

This completely broke Bettes heart. She whispered in Tinas ear and pulled her tightly into her arms. I’m here baby. Tina I’m here. I’m never going to leave you again. Shhh baby.. Its ok, Ive got you. Ive got you Tina

Tina woke from her dream frightened until she felt herself wrapped in Bettes arms. Tina turned over facing Bette and nuzzled her head into Bettes chest and starting crying.

Tina: I was so worried about you Bette. Please, dont ever leave me like that again. I couldnt take it if I lost you. (crying harder) I’m so scared Bette. I cant face this alone.

Bette: Shhh, baby.. I’m here. Please forgive me. I didnt mean to run. Things just got so crazy in my head. I know I.. we should have talked. I just let all of my emotions take over and I shut down. I was so embarrassed after my panic attack. I got angry instead of letting myself come to you. Cry with you. Cry together.

Tina: Bette, we have been through so much this past year. I (crying) I’m not sure I can take any more. Its like we have one good moment and then all ***** breaks loose the next. I need stability in our lives. My emotions cant keep bouncing back and fourth like this.

Bette: Honey I know. I know exactly what you are feeling. I dont think I can take any more either. But..

Tina: But what?

Bette: Do you think maybe Maybe together we can?

Tina: You mean take more of this. NO!!! I cant..

Bette: No.. I mean fix this. Together? Take control of the things we can change.. And together accept the things we cant. Instead of dealing with it alone.

Tina: Bette, I want nothing more than to be with you. Love you and be loved by you. I cant and I wont do this alone any more. I needed you today and you pushed me away. I know you are trying to apologize. Its just that You cant blow up or shut down, push me away and then come back and think all is forgiven.

Bette: I know that baby. I never expected to come home tonight and everything be ok or be able to talk it away. I know I hurt you deeply. (crying) I just got so scared of losing you, losing the babies. I have never been so happy in all my life. I just.. I just couldnt handle it if I could never see you again. Hold you, smell your scent, feel your body close to mine. Tina, please forgive me. I.. I dont think I could make it without you. I I just know Id really die then.

Tina: Bette, baby.. I’m not going any where as long as you do not push me away. I can only come back so many times when you push me away. Until I start to feel you shove me away. Its then that I dont think I can come back. I love you more than anything or anyone in the world Bette. Other than our children. I dont want you to ever force me to make that decision. You either want us and fight for us. Or walk away.

Bette: God Tina. I dont want to lose you or our babies. I dont want to walk away but what if??

Tina: No what if. We will face what ever the good Lord above gives us, but we will do it together. Its apart that I cant handle. Together Bette. Together we can conquer anything. Together our love is the ties that bind our souls for life. Do you remember that song?

Bette: Which one?

Tina: The Ties That Bind. I cant remember it now but Ill find it tomorrow. I want you to read the words to it. It reminds me of you sometimes.

Bette: Baby, Ill read or listen to any things you want me to. But right now, we better get some sleep. I have a test in the morning that you and I have to do together.

Tina: Bette really? You really want me there with you?

Bette: Yes baby. I want you there with me. Tomorrow, the next day and forever. I promise.

Tina: Oh Bette. I love you so much. I just know everything is going to be ok. It just has to be.

Bette: I know baby. I love you too. I’m sure its nothing. Besides, like Whit said. Ive beaten this thing before and I can do it again if I have to. If we have to. Nothing could ever take me away from you or our babies. (kissing) Now go to sleep baby and let me hold you safe in my arms.

Tina: (kissing) I love you so much Bette. More than life itself. Sweet dreams baby, I love you, see you in the morning.

Bette: Sweet dreams, I love you and Ill see you in the morning too.

The sun was shining across their bed now. Bette woke and opened her eyes and whispered a silent pray. Please Father, let me be ok. I know I dont talk to you as often as I should or say a prayer unless I need something. For that I’m sorry. Right now I am so afraid. I really need your help. I know what ever is going to happen today you already know the plan, but if you could just hold me. Help me, us through this today I would really appreciate it. Amen.

Tina heard her wifes prayer and with tears falling down her face whispered to herself, Please lord.

The baby monitor went off and both heard their babies waking up. Tina rolled over and kissed her wife and thanked her for letting her in. For coming back and promising never to run again.

Another beautiful morning. What a way to start the day. Son we really need to talk. You pee in my face every day. Hey that rhymed Bette turned and giggled at Tina.

Yea it did. When will you ever learn Bette to cover him? You know I think youre right. I think I saw him aim. Tina answered with a giggle of her own.

Babies fed, changed and rocked back to sleep. Time for their mommies to shower and dress. Bette didnt want anything for breakfast. She was to nervous. I think Ill go take a shower Tina said as Bette sipped her coffee and read the morning paper. Ok Bette answered.

Tina stood in the shower saying another prayer as her tears fell from her eyes. I cant lose her Lord. I couldnt make it alone if I tried. Tina felt the loving arms embrace her. She raised her head as she felt Bette pull her back into her strong embrace. They stood there for what seemed like forever. Bette couldnt let go. So there they stood under the warmth of the shower together. Bettes strong arms just holding on. Feeling their love, believing it would guide them today.

Kit arrived as it was time for Bette and Tina to leave. Kit was hesitant at first and didnt know what to say. Bette opened the door and grabbed her sister into her arms. Please forgive me. I never meant to hurt you Bette cried into her sisters shoulder holding on for dear life, holding on for forgiveness.

Kit: Baby sis its ok. We both said things we never meant. Please forgive me too.

Bette and Kit released the hurt, the anger, the pain. They held each other and cried. Then one last strong hug good bye. Good luck Kit said. As she watched them leave. The lowered her head, Please Lord, let my baby sis be ok Kit whispered.