Bette was released from the hospital after a few days. She has to be extremely careful of her head for several more weeks. That was fine with her because all she wanted to do was lay around with Tina and feel their baby kick.

Bette and Tina had a long talk about what happened that day at the party. Bette confessed that she was already feeling inadequate given the circumstance in the shower that morning. Banging her head against the wall although an involuntary reaction to the flashback probably put her in the hospital. That and alcohol mixed with pains meds. Getting hit with the volleyball was just the last straw I guess.

Bette lowered her head to Tinas tummy. Most of all I need to apologize to you and Jennifer. I saw you in her arms in the kitchen that day. My mind filled with jealousy and I made a fool of myself and put my life in danger by drinking. I’m sorry you were crying over me that day. I didnt mean to have a flashback. I’m sorry it hurt your heart. I didnt know Stacey was in there with you both until it came up in the hospital. I just got all these crazy feelings looking at her. She looks so much like me I just thought maybe you wanted to trade up for a better model. Healthier model with long brown curly hair like mine use to be.

Tina has listened to Bette go on and on pouring her heart out about this and that and just about everything. She couldnt remember the last time if ever that Bette was so completely open and honest with her about her feeling.

Bette talked about Candace. She was angry, hurt and cried. Mostly she was worried about the upcoming trial. She wish to the good lord above that they wouldnt have to go. Candace was out on bail now, but Whit had made sure she knew not to come any where near us.

Chemo was very hard this week. A little boy I had met there passed away. We always sat next to each other when I went. He always had his Notre Dame ball cap on. His mom gave it to me this week. I never take it off now Tina says. But shes not complaining. She knows how special it is. Go Irish!!!

Shane came over this week and talked to Tina for a long time. When they were done both were crying. I wasnt sure what was up with that, but I figured Shane needed Tina so it was ok. Shane is like the baby sis you always want to protect. Tina on the other hand is very motherly with Shane.

After Shane left Tina called Jennifer. After Tina hung up I guess it was my turn to get a talking to.

Tina came in and laid down on the bed with me. She looked into my eyes and said well apparently I kissed Jennifer in the hospital thinking it was you after they knocked me out.

Shane overheard Jennifer tell Whit, but she only got half right. Jennifer said I called her Bette and said I need you, dont leave me. Thats why Jennifer has been so upset lately. She told me that we are like her family and she wasnt ever going to tell because it was just a misunderstanding. That you were dying and I was sedated.

I knew I was right when I said Jennifer was our friend and would never hurt me. I just should have listened sooner. I might not have this hole in my head now.