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2004

“Why didden`t you get that boat?” Clive asked Shane,and peered his eyes against the sun as they sat on the beach eating ice-cream.
Shane gazed at her feet. “guess I just found that something I was looking for” she whispered. “I can cut you`re hair for free” she suggested, obviously proud of her job. Clive smiled, and Shane could tell that he was happy for her, and she knew that he felt emberrast. Emberrast for not have becoming anything. Not fulfilling his dreams. She knew he felt weak and pathetic. “Remember how we used to sit here Shane? Just sit and smoke without talking. I was so jealous at you. Especially because of those converse shoes you got. You saved money for a long time to get them” Shane interupted him and pointed down at her shoes. “still got them” she laughed. “The point is Shane, that I`m still jealous. but not in a negative way. I admire you. I would have been dead if it wasen`t for you. I know you think I`m a mess” he ended. “NO Clive. You`re not a mess.” Shane spoke with her firm voice. “And you`re wrong. I`m the one that woulden`t been here if it wasent for you. YOU Clive. But you need to get away from this. The drugs will kill you man.” Clive had tears in his eyes. He wanted so badly to get out of it, but he had given up everything that ment something to him for a long time ago. “Stay with you`re mom again for a while. Get out of L.A”. Clive tried to not cry. “Dad hates me Shane. The last thing he said to me was to get the ***** out of there”. He shook his head in frustration. His eyes had become red from the tears he cried and the anger he felt. “I don`t know man. You need a break from this.” She hugged him, and it felt like hugging a little boy, desperatly needing love. Shane looked at him. “You`re my best friend and I love you. Don`t ever forget that”.

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2006

It was spring. A lovely day in L.A, and the air was dry and hot. Shane had just finished a cliant when the phone called. “The lather how can I help you? Uhm..yeah I`m Shane.” Every muscle in Shanes body became weak as the message from the police officer reached her mind. Without saying goodbye, she hung up. She slowly bended her knees and collapsed at the floor, mourning infront of the cliants. She liftet her head as she cried.”NO! It can`t be. I don`t want you to leave me…”