End Flashback

Three hours just looking at her and Shane isn’t even tired.
Three hours leaning against the bar and sending her bottles of water and Shane feels like she could go on and on forever.
Just caressing her with her eyes. Kissing her with her gaze.
Just watching her in her wonderful black dress.
Just observing how her hips move at the rhythm of the music. Hypnotizing and charming.
Just noticing how the crowd seems amazed by her beauty and by her talent.
Shane doesn’t see anything and anyone but Carmen. She doesn’t even realize how many girls in the club are hitting on her or looking at her like huntresses on the prowl.
Carmen looks at her from the console.
She half-smiles and blinks, as if she’s thinking about something that Shane cannot nail.
It’s two o’clock in the morning and the show is almost over.
There’s time left just for one more song.
Carmen stares at Shane as the music starts.

”All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow…”

Carmen’s eyes saddened.
Carmen’s eyes cloudy and full of something unreadable. Something that lies beneath.
Shane sips her beer and thinks that all this, all of this, really seems taken from Donnie Darko’s world.
Her eyes never leave Carmen’s.

”And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very
Mad world
Mad world…”

Haunting music, haunting words.
Haunting, painful feeling swirling inside of Shane.
The club is packed, but only Carmen is in her field of view.
Only Carmen is meaning everything, now.
Carmen, who’s hiding some never told secrets.
Carmen, who loves her and loves her not.
Carmen, who doesn’t want her anymore.
Carmen, who asked her to stay.
Carmen.

”Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me…”