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    Hindsight – Chapter 35

     

    I missed her and I missed my best friend… she was always my best friend…

     

    I couldn’t just lie here…, I had to do something…, I had to try and get my life sorted out, in whatever way that was…

     

    Last night and today had made such a huge impact on me that it was hard to believe that it was only yesterday morning that I was living my life with Henry and tried so hard not to think about her…, but it was futile…, it was always going to be a futile attempt to try and live a life without her in it…

     

    I knew that now…

     

    I stand up and run my fingers through my hair…, there was no point in putting it off any longer…, I had to go and do what needed to be done…

     

    I had to go and tell him that my life with him was over…

     

    I peered inside the door of Angelica’s room, she was sound asleep, obviously worn out with her action in the park this afternoon, but she would be fine… she would wake up with her other mother and I could come around tomorrow to see them both… I smiled at her, stroking the curls on her head before making my retreat to find Bette…

     

    I walked into the lounge and found it empty; the French doors were ajar so I walked toward them looking through the glass to see where Bette was…

     

    I stood for a moment as I watched her on the lounger, she looked relaxed, something she had said she had been unable to do in many weeks, just relax… maybe today had done her good too…, I hoped so…

     

    I stepped out onto the decking and quietly walk down the few steps to where she laid, I noticed her eyes closed, it makes me smile as I see her…, I notice the cigarette between her fingers, the spend grey ash dangling precariously from the butt she held between her fingers, maybe she had lit it and fallen asleep…, it certainly looked that way…

     

    I perched my bottom on the edge of the lounger, as I had done so many times in the past, but other times led to other things, they were memories I treasured…, how she would be lying there with her eyes closed, a smile crossing her features as she spoke, ‘I know you’re there…’, she would say, without even opening her eyes…, it would start then…, my fingers would begin the slow journey upwards…, along her sensitive ankles…, along the lithe calves…, my body would follow my fingers until I was laid against her, with my head on her chest, our fingers laced together…, we would stay like that for hours…

    Comments

    1. Ok, seriously, I wanted to mention this to you… JB. How does she keep getting hotter? It’s just wrong, right? I knew, somewhere, you were sitting there in awe just as much as I was… I just… oh my god. Anyway, this post was heartbreakingly beautiful, which I’m sure I’m said before, but it still goes. Tina could always go, talk to Henry, and come right back… Maybe? Fantastic, mate, it’s just too good. Kettle x

    2. Damn. I understand that before Tina can stay, she has to go, but that had to be hard. Tah,tah, Henry. Bette needs to propose Tina and Angelica stay with her.

    3. This is probably going to be one of the longest nights ever, for both of them. At least Bette has Angelica this time. Tina’s wondering how she can make it up to Bette… she can start by ditching the dullard, coming back, and then never leaving Bette again. Yeah, one can dream, but what a difference a single day has made so far… Great as always, Jo. And congrats on the new awards.

    4. Congratulations on your two wins for the lastest awards. Even though this story is heart breaking it gives one hope. The hope that love can conquer all is what life is all about. Tina is finally coming to the realization that she made some very bad decisions and now is wanting to make them right. Telling Henry that it is over is one step in the right direction. Moving out to an apartment is another step, although I would love to see her move back in with Bette the apartment is the best step at this point.

    5. If Bette had said to me “I don’t want you to go” We would have gone to our grave with me glued to her I know before Bette and Tin can be together Tina needs to get her life in order. Bette will understand this.because Tina left Angie with her. Bette is so fragile in this. Tina didnt understand that she was the stronger one in their life. thanks

    6. Congratulations again, Jo. You deserved it. I think it shows growth on Tina’s part to go finish it with Henry before attempting anything else, but we know perfectly well that she will make the attempt, and soon. Fortunately these two seem to have discovered that the reason for their tears isn’t utterly irrevocable.

    7. Simply brilliant. The rare writer can take small events in life and describe them so perfectly that we all understand and feel them deeply. That’s who you are.

    8. Jo, wow, you are the total Queen of the stories that all unfold withing a few hours or days…you give us an insight that would otherwise be missed…thanks doesn’t seem quite enough

    9. “I..don’t want you to go” heartbreaking, but also a brave line by Bette in this difficult situation…..fuck I just love a vulnerable BP!!! Yes Tina, your heart is longing to come home – home to your woman. BTW I’m sure Tina have missed other things than aroma to tease her (senses)!!! LOL – brilliant post x

    10. Jo, Gal that was powerful stuff. The emotional impact of this tale hits you like a double barreled shotgun. BAM, Bette’s turmoil hits you then BAM Tina’s confusion adds the second blow. This pain and hurting is intense but hopefully the gals are starting to see the journey’s end. Wonderful that hope has sprung however tiny into their lives again. jo, you have a real flair and attention to the tiniest of feelings. I am wring out emotionally after each chapter. Please continue soon. Many thanks from your Your Loyal Fan.

    11. Jo, jo, jo… never apologize for the story being longer than usual!! lol! it could be 8 pages and still not enough! this story is so beautiful, heartbreaking, insightful… and now I see hope! well done! can’t wait to the next chapter! (love both povs)

    12. Sometimes words can not suffice… How can I find words to anwer your touching once? How can I comment on a story that is so delicate, fragile and yet so strong it takes my breath away, and do it justice? I once was compared to a pianist for writing by my friend, Therese… And when I read YOUR words, my dear friend, I can hear the melody… I can here the sounds you have evoked, the music that touches our hearts so deeply… The feelings you can express with these letters, just by putting them in a certain order. You make hearts wrench and eyes water… You, my dear Jo, are a writer, in every sense of the word… Pls bless us with your amazing talent again soon, and blow us away with this story!

    13. dang, so heartwrenching and hopeful at the same time. made all the more poignant since i’ve all but given up any hope that i’ll see anything remotely resembling this on screen. thank you so much

    14. Absolutely amazing Jo…and I have no problem with longer – feel free to slip a few extra sentences into a chapter anytime! LOL! Ahhh yes…JB continues to improve in all aspects. Thanks for the sweet visual of her in that white vest and Levis! Excellent post. Your writing is so eloquent. And I love how you are letting us know what each of them is thinking.

    15. Great chapter mate. Good to see that Tina is doing the right thing and telling Henry before it goes any further. I wonder what Bette will be thinking while she is gone.

    16. Man thats beautiful. Glad Tina is going to talk to Henry b/c she needs to get rid of him and figure things out so that she can move home again to her family. Amazing writing, thanks. PPS

    17. Mmmmm, this was so close to perfection. Now is the time when Tina has to gather all her strength and do the right thing. And after she has told Henry what he needs to know, she should HURRY back home…. where her wife and child are waiting. Please, Jo… let Tina make it up to Bette. LOL… I’m whining, I know… sorry!

    18. Hey..Well im not sure i could have been as strong as Tina in that situation, but she has to do the right thing…and the sooner the better..then she needs to come home, where she truly belongs..This story has always been hard on the poor heartstrings…but there has always been hope, sometimes hidden, but always there!..and beautifully written…

    19. You write with such incredible intensity Jo. And although I’m really enjoying this story, I don’t enjoy is feeling like I need a drink after reading it. ;) Well, sometimes I enjoy that too! Congratulations on your well deserved awards. Very cool.

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