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    Hindsight – Chapter 36

    Story written on February 23, 2007 by Jobadge.
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    Bette Porter: My heart was crying out for her, didn’t she hear it calling to her…

     

    I glanced at the clock and saw that it was nearing Angelica’s bed time, I decided a bath would finish off the day, I missed bathing her, seeing her wet skin shiny covered with bubbles, how she still got excited at kicking and screaming as she splashed, knowing full well the harder she kicked, the wetter I got and the more excited she got… and after, wrapped in a big fluffy towel…

     

    Was I getting soft…, allowing my mind to see the picture perfect scenes of children…, had I missed her that much that all the rest faded into the background…, the sleepless night and dirty nappies didn’t figure…, yeah I guess I was going soft, because with her in my arms wrapped in a big fluffy towel smelling of a fresh bath made my heart sing louder than it had in seven weeks and five days…

     

    With her dried and dressed in her clean jim-jams we sat in the rocking chair in her bedroom, this was the chair that Tina used to sit in, when she was nursing her…, I used to stand in the doorway just watching mother and daughter in that act that was so intimate and yet, for me, the most beautiful that I had ever seen…, the woman I loved with our child in her arms, feeding her as her body was designed to do…

     

    As I read the story aloud I felt the relaxing of her body lying in my arms,  the bottle I had made cast aside as we rocked gently back and forth…, I’m not sure I could bear to put her down…, to allow her body to settle into a slumber in her cot, I just wanted to hold her, to remember how many times in the past I had done this, just hold her sleeping body against mine as my lips rested on the softness of her curly hair…

     

    I’m not sure how long I sat with her in my arms, but it was dark outside, and I think as my thoughts travelled through the times since Angelica was born, I must have drifted off too…, but as my eyes adjusted to the dimness of the light, I heard the telephone ringing…

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    2. … I should have known you had something up your sleeve. It was just going too well, wasn’t it? ;) Fantastic as always. Barely any time has actually passed in your story, yet each moment is so beautifully worded that keep forgetting it’s been, what, a day? Kettle x

    7. For the love of… why, *w h y* did you stop it there? Now I’m all anxious… I can see I’m going to have to fire up another happy dvd. Or fire up something… You’ll have to post soon Jo and put everyone’s mind at ease… please?

    10. OMFG , you and NYGayLady are in this mission together, pls say no pls tell me it’s not true. You’re both bent on making us suffer, Tibette forever, pls jo, 2x in one day, my tibette heart just can’t take this….

    13. This is just not right. I get the feeling Tina has been hurt, and if so it better not be bad. And if Henry did it, he better start running. Please don’t let them lose each other.

    15. Damn Jo…your writing ability just leaves me speechless. Sometimes I have to stop reading to take a few deep breaths. I don’t realize that I am holding my breath, but I am. Please please please Jo, let our T be alright. If Henry has hurt her I’m going to somehow reach into cyberspace and kick his sorry ass. Congrats on your awards…you totally deserve them! Your cliffhangers are adding years to my life! More Jo! More! And soon please!

    18. Fuuuuuuuuuuuck! That’s about all I can manage to say right now! *gets down on knees and begs* Please, please, please, please post soon! Oh and congratulations on the award :)

    20. Ok a woman receives a much deserved award and celebrates it by leaving us hanging like this! – damn that’s an abuse of power – you write so powerfully and beautifully I am in awe. And pissed off to be dangling with worry ; )

    21. Did dat fucker put his hands on her?!?! SON OF A BITCH!!! I’m at work right now and I’m bored as shit. But this story is just so damn captivating, I can’t pull myself away 2 attempt 2 get anything done. Please post soon. PEACE.

    22. was she in an accident? did henry hurt her? please, keep tina safe…they are just getting it all together…pps…..and congrats on the awards

    24. Well, It just may be the Drama award next time round!..lol…i find it hard to believe that you would let anything really bad happen to either of them..But one never knows!!!!!

    25. You have me really really worried right now. Tina has finally worked through her true emotions only to have something happen to her. It could be an auto accident or something that Henry did to her but she has to survive. Tina has to be alright now that the lines of communication have been opened up. Love can and will conquer all when it comes to Bette and Tina.

    31. Oh, no…. you better not keep us waiting, Jo… cause the suspense is killing me here. Please let Tina be safe… Congrats on your awards – as always – they are much deserved.

    32. hey Jo – well all us badgers are just thrilled that our fav writer has won another two awards — but what was that you said the other day about wanting to be drama queen one day ? i was thrilled that you won two awards. You sure let your writing do all your talking for you. and i am looking forward to your new story. though if you are chasing the DQ award let me just remind you what you are up against in a certain other story – how the hell are we going to survive without you when you go on holiday ? hugs as always mate x

    33. OMG!!! What happened to Tina?!?! I become crazy if I have to wait all the weekend for an answer!!! So please post soon, very soon! And congrats on the awards.

    34. It would be in perfect line with the title of your story that Tina has somehow died. However reading this otherwise amazing story of yours has been one heartbreak after another, so please spare us this one.

    35. Awwwww sweetie thank you for the Author Note, your words mean so much….and you know I feel the same about you :o)) Glad I know what’s next coz ending the chapter right there is so cruel LOL!!! Once again congrats with well deserved awards, you’re the best!!! xx

    36. Oh, my God ! What happened ? What happened ? I knew something had happened to Tina… I knew it. Where is chapter 37 ?Jo, this chapter was just fantastic. Actually, it was more than that, it was simply…perfect. Beautiful, moving, soothing, … Needless to say your cliffanger is excruciating, which only proves how talented you are. BTW, congratulations on your new awards ! You sooooo deserve them.

    37. This is SO NOT RIGHT! Congrats on the award! Look seriously though we have already been deprived of Tina for half of season 4 – please just a tiny, tiny bit of Tibette happiness?! ;o)

    38. Now I understand why your writing about Bette and Angelica’s relationship is so amazing… Okay, Jo, if this is an attempt at racing for the “Heart attacks R us – drama” award, let me tell you that you’re spot on!!!… The whole building scene until the “It’s Tina” was really intense… I’m now biting my nails with these million scenarios going around in my head… And I do have a few scary ones… So please post soon and end my agony!… Oh, and NO, it’s not just sex and comedy with you… It’s everything at the same time! And I’ll take the bet right now that you’re indeed very capable to win an award in every single category!!! Sex, done! Comedy, done! Short story, done! Not too worried about the “Most romantic”, “ongoing series”, and “drama” (as you just proved to us), and I just KNOW that you’ll get the Bomb award, there is not a single doubt in my mind… The only award i’m concerned about is the “Non-traditional pairing or storyline”, don’t get me wrong, I know you could easily get it, but just stick to non-traditional STORYLINE, pleaaase? ;) Oh, and I never bet unless I know I’m gonna win! ;)… Okay, Jo, all this ranting just to tell you: With you, it’s NOT just sex and comedy, take my word for it…

    41. i am always so afraid to read this but i know i have to. it hurts because i recognize. but leaving us here hanging with this huge lump in our stomac is even crueler. but it is so an amazing story. thanks.

    43. Wow, you and NY are really taking us out for a spin today. I hope Tina is okay. This story is so well written, though; I always look forward to a new chapter. So congrats!

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