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    HOPE ALONE – Chapter 21

    Story written on February 5, 2008 by Gumby.
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    Bette and Tina confront their difficult memories…together

    “I can’t,” Bette choked out as she struggled with her emotions.

    “Why?”

    “I’ve thought about that night,” Bette wiped tears falling from her eyes.  “I was just so…”

    Tina waited for Bette to express her thoughts clearly.

    “I was so desperate,” Bette said sadly.

    “Desperate?”

    “I needed to feel something,” Bette said as her tears fell faster.  “I was so numb at that point in my life, I was desperate to feel something.”

    “I felt pain,” Tina said sadly causing Bette to frown and wipe at her eyes again.  “I’m not saying that to make you feel worse, but all I felt was pain and I was desperate to feel anything but that.”

    The room fell silent for a few moments, each woman deep in thought, until Tina rose from her seat and sat down on the couch next to Bette.  They both stared at the empty space before them, searching for the right words to mend the pain.

    “I want to fix this,” Bette said softly.

    “I do too.”

    “I don’t want to fix it because of ‘Lez Girls’,” Bette added with a bitter tone to her voice.  “I want to fix it because we never addressed what happened that night and I think we need to, if we’re serious about mending our relationship and moving forward.”

    “I know,” Tina said quietly.  “Where do we start?”

    “We start with talking,” Bette rolled her eyes at her own statement.  “Sometimes I guess I surprise myself with how much I’ve changed since that night.  I should have asked to just talk to you, not force you into a position you should have never been in.”

    “We should have talked before it got to that point,” Tina corrected Bette’s logic.  “I wish you would have talked to me before you slept with Candace.”

    “Me too,” Bette admitted quickly.  “I was so… lost.”

    “Why?”

    “I thought I had to be strong,” Bette’s voice quivered slightly as she spoke.  “I felt so out of control in my life and I can’t survive that way.  I’m not one that can release control to the fates and trust that what was meant to be will be.  I couldn’t control that you lost the baby or that you were pulling away from me, so I avoided having that in front of me as a reminder that I lost that battle.”

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    1. They are talking, together they can come up with something that will blow the minds of all the blood suckers. Kate and Jenny. We for get that Bette and Tina are the only ones that really knows their life. Together they can win this battle. thanks

    2. I am glad that Tina shared what scene she was being asked to write. I love Bette reaching out and showing Tina her feelings. Together these two can conquer anything. Oh and Kate, well let’s just say I am hoping she gets put in her place SOON. :)

    9. Chapter after chapter your incredible talent shines through. I hope that you feel pride when you read this story, because you are doing an exceptional job. Thank you…thank you!

    14. ouch, baby that was so very much pain, I can’t even believe that, that was not more painful then the night it happened, that night they were on auto pilot and not thinking thing over but now they had to mesh memories and relive all that pain, So can you please let them write the 2 weeks and then let Bette go talk to Kate, (in that alpha Bette kinda way) I love that. Thanks for the up date Gumby, you rock. Md

    15. Gumby, you are unbelievable! I love the way you have constructed this whole story to explain all of the things that contributed to their demise. It’s brilliant…their relationship is reconstructed as they talk about what broke it down.

    17. Thank you for allowing them to talk out that very difficult time in their life. With Bette’s help Tina will be able to bring to life some form of that night but it will also help in putting that night in behind them. This is a new beginning for them and something in the future to build onto.

    20. So much emotional drama. Great writing as always. I am still not sure if not both Bette of old and current Bette would have a stronger reaction to Tina even entertaining the idea of relaying any info from that night. I mean come on should’nt Kate be happy to get some space for some of her own ideas? Cant wait to read more.

    22. Gumby the machine must have eaten th last two pages because you just couldn’t have stopped there, surely not. Hopefully you will post another chapter tomorrow so that we will not faint from anticipation.Great story and you are doing a magnificent job with it. your writing is brillant and you convey all the pain, agony, triumph,joy and love they feel for each other. Even through the pain they carry from the past they can now look beyond the pain and defend each other and still have that undying love and devotion for each other. That is very powerful and you have conveyed it beautifully with Bette feeling Tina’s pain that she inflicted and offering to help her thru it so Tina doesn’t ever go through all that alone again. That’s LOVE. To be able to do all that and find that you love that person on a much deeper level than you ever thought you could, that’s the ultimate statement of love. Thank you so much for sharing this story with us and I am always very eager for the next chapter. You should be writing the season.

    23. well at least they talked…(what happened that night I can never see as rape, or forced by either of them. It was pain and anguish coming out, as LH so eloquently put in in one of her interviews). So now am waiting on the next post Gumby, as am I on “lazy afternoons”

    24. Yes for them talking. i’m happy that tina spoke about her feelings and even more so that bette followed tina’s lead. kate better watch out cuz bette will in turbo alpha mode over tina.

    26. Come on! How can you be hoping that we like this chap when it was …. totally and purely SPECTACULAR! Ohh.. I wish you where hired to write season 6!! Take care my friend and now WE hope you post soon!

    27. I love this chapter, wow they are really talking I thought this day wouldn’t come soon, You are an incredible writer dear and this story is one of your amazing work, please post soon I just can’t wait to see what will happen next and what are they going to talk about?? With all my best, have a great day friend. Thanks

    31. Painful night for both of them. As much as B & T hate that Jenny created “Lez Girls” it might be what brings them back together. The two of them having to hash out the why’s will make them stronger. PS.

    33. Hello Gumby, I am just catching up with all the marvelous writing having spent two weeks ill with Chicken Pox. Not good when you are an adult but nearly all recovered now. So on to your wonderful writing and delightful drama. This chapter should just how difficult but necessary it is for Tina and Bette to deal with the events of their break-up before they can truly move forward. The heartbreak and hurt are evident here. You capture all of the angst and distress that revisiting and reliving this time has brought these gals. I love the fact that they are sharing their thoughts with one another. Finally… This is a definite move forward and shows that both these gals want more for the future. They both need closure on this heinous night. I do agree that sharing all of these revelations with the rest of the world would ultimately be detrimental to their love together. I do want them to work towards a mutually agreeable version of the destruction of their partnership. Bette appearing at Tina’s office was a wonderful scene. More please of this must read adventure. Many thanks from Your Loyal Fan,

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