Fan Fiction
This story has been set to a rating of R. Age verification is required to proceed.
How could you forget us? Chapter 20
Login to add story to favorites
(48 votes, average: 3.48 out of 5)You need to be a registered member to rate this post.
Loading ...
They walked into one of the rooms that showcased Peggy’s vast collection. They began to admire the works of some of some of the modern artists. Helena stopped at a piece that was an abstract of a pregnant woman. Studying it she explained to Bette, “Do you even know how much I loved you? How crazy I was for you? My mother reminded my of something I said years ago. When Winnie was pregnant with Wilson, I said I would never do that to my body. I was so vain about my body back then I would not consider getting pregnant. But things change and I found myself so in love with you I considered it. I actually considered having a child with you. I know it’s not something we discussed. I know we are too new together but my biologic clock is ticking and I actually wanted it. That’s how much I was in love with you. That’s why I’m afraid of you Elizabeth Porter because I would put my body through that for you, for us.
Coming around to stand in front of the painting and facing Helena, Bette asked, “Why are you talking in past tense? Are you saying you don’t love me any more? That’s what I am hearing. That’s why I feel I’ve lost you.”
Helena took both of Bette’s hands in hers and explained, “Bette, you may have lost part of me. But you haven’t lost all of me. I still love you and that hasn’t changed.”
Bette smiled but was shocked about Helena’s revelation about the thoughts about a child, Bette asked timidly. “I didn’t know you wanted to have a baby. Why didn’t tell me?”
“I didn’t think we were at the point where we should discuss it.”
“And now…Now you would not consider it.”
“No, certainly not were we are. How could I? There is so much up in air. I would not do what Tina did. I would only do it if we were a couple. I would have to feel good about us and confident about bringing in a little someone into our madness.”
They both smiled, acknowledging there was a lot of madness. “Helena, I want us to recover. I want us to get back to where you would consider having a child with me. I would love that. You are a wonderful mother. I love to share that with you, every part of it. From insemination to delivery, and every day in between and every day after. Helena, I would love to have that with you.”
Comments
Leave a Reply
You must be logged in to post a comment.
Squirl, you never, ever, not never disappoint!! Good to hear the dialogue that they are really talking…and Bette had the nerve to be jealous..ha! PPS
As I was reading this story this song was playing on my computer. It was a great choice. It fit well with this story. Excellent update!
great conversation but bette is gonna move to NY and leaver her daughter and be with helena and her kids instead????
I love that song!!! I cried when I first heard it. good choice for them not to go to bed right away.
I still can’t believe that Bette has already made a decision of moving to New York without even considering that the move means she will be away from Angelica for a long time unless she pays a visit to the kid. This BETTE deserved to be abandoned by her mother when she was 3…..thanks for posting.
loved jealous Bette!!very funny…I’m still worried about Bette separating from Angelica…mmm…can of worms. pps
I totally agree with BeLena here, but then again, I don’t think Bette will actually leave Angie behind. She’s just not thinking rationally right now. In fact, I’m pretty sure even Helena wouldn’t allow this to happen.
I can’t believe she’s actually considering leaving her child behind? This is wrong, you should never leave your child for a lover. No good Bette, definitely no good
Hello Squirl, I can’t imagine how much pain Bette is in to even consider leaving Angelica behind, I can totally understand why everyone is surprised that Bette might consider this, but I don’t think that this is the only important issue being brought up, this is a huge step she is taking to ensure that Helena really understands how truly sorry she is, this sacrifice is one that should really send Helena looking into the mirror, would she be willing to do the same thing for Bette if their roles were reversed, Helena’s stay in LA was her choice and she chose to live away from her Children, as this is Bette’s choice, but the main difference is Bette is doing this not only for Helena but for herself, she is trying to show the women she loves just how far she is willing to go. I don’t want Bette away from Angelica anymore then she would want to be, but sometimes we have to make choices that might not seem logical, she is being lead by her heart, not her mind. I hope that eventually Helena might allow Bette back in completely, but here and now she should realize what Bette is willing to sacrifice for her. Another note is Helena should not have even broached the issue of having a child with Bette until she felt they were in a place of Trust and forgiveness, which she stated might never happen, this is a move of manipulation, one she might have used back when she had the resources at her disposal, she might be allowing her new found status to interfere with the life she might have wanted with Bette, because she obviously doesn’t want that life at the moment, so why even tell her, to make her suffer like you suffered, why? (Again I’m not sure that all made sense :P) Sincerely, JC
S, I had to read the last few chapters cause I was away on a mini vacatin and loved every single one, and loved the song by Alicia Keys..
Hey Squirl, loved that sexual push and pull going on! Steammmmy. As for Bette, she needs to get her head out of her butt. Sorry, but if Bette were my g/f and so willing to leave her daughter behind for me, I would lose alot of respect for her. I hope she rethinks that. Awesome chappy.
Peggy, as usual, has *impeccable* timing. It’s maybe for the best though, as a new start is definitely the way forward. I’m glad Bette is willing to do whatever it takes, but like the others, my very first thought was of Bette leaving Angelica behind. Can she do it, or is she expecting to borrow the Peabody jet for frequent trips? Or will Helena come back to LA? (She’s already left her own children once, can she do so again?) There has to be a happy middle ground somewhere, right? Thanks for such good chapter, Squirl. More when you can please.