Alice groaned the thoughts were starting to hurt her head, but she had to figure this out before she went and talked to Dana, and she planned on doing that tonight. So before she went over there Alice wanted to have some clear view of how they should proceed. The trouble that she was having though was stemming from a random thought that had struck her last night as she had wandered into the kitchen for a drink unable to sleep and desperately needing her head to leave her alone. In her sleep deprived stroll she had gone out onto the porch to think and had almost tripped over a sleeping Dana Fairbanks. The fact that Dana had waited there until she had fallen asleep was both flattering and frightening. Because in that moment watching her sleep in such an uncomfortable position Alice had finally realized that Dana loved her. And with realizing this, Alice also realized that she needed Dana. Both points were particularly scary in their own way. The first being that she had never until that moment believed that anyone loved her. Alice sat and relived the moment because even though it was quite scary to know that you were responsible for another persons heart it was also the best feeling in the world. But the one that she was having the most trouble with was the second. Because in all of her years there was one thing that had always held true for Alice. She had never needed anyone. It was true. Since the day that she had been able to take care of herself, which due to her mother’s misguided attempts at raising her had been about the age of four, She had always depended on herself. But somewhere in the last five years or so, she had learned that she could depend on Dana. Even though they constantly bickered back and forth and teased each other mercilessly at times, Alice understood that there was nothing that Dana wouldn’t do for her. Alice didn’t want to think about what would happen if they broke up. She didn’t want think about life without Dana. And that was causing all of her sudden doubts. It was the reason that she had decided that she and Dana should go back to being just friends