I can’t believe how much my life has changed in three months. Three months ago, I felt dead to the world. Then she came back into my life. She breathed fresh air into my lungs. Granted we were hesitant to move forward to fast, to say the least.

After cross-examination, Lara agreed that her relationship with Dana indeed had been a farce. However, her and Dana have stayed friends. I must admit that I owe my relationship with Dana to Lara. If Lara had gone along with Dana, lord knows where that girl would have ridden that thing. If Lara hadn’t snapped her out of her daze we wouldn’t be here.

Dana started her treatment two weeks after the afternoon we shared together. At first, everything was going great. Well as great as one can be after having chemicals pumped into their body to fight off a disease, this breast cancer, ***** bent on destroying them. Still, she stayed so strong in front of our friends and her family. She didn’t want them to see her when she was having a bad day. I was there though. After every treatment, every doctor’s visit, I’d take her home and sit with her. I’d hold her as she tried to regain a sliver of herself. When she got to the point where she was Dane again, it was time for another treatment. I’ve seen her deteriorate right before my eyes.

It has been hard on me, but I can’t imagine.I really can’t fathom what this has done to her. Like I said, things were going as well as I could hope, but then she stopped responding to the drugs. I watched her go from the most beautiful, radiant woman I have ever known, to almost a shell of a person. If I could take her pain away, I would.

I wonder to myself why. Why does it have to be my Dana? Then I feel anger run through my bodyanger to who or whatever did this to her. It’s not fair.

I stir uncomfortably on the hard, sterile hospital “couch”. You really think they could make these things more accommodating.  But it’s practically become my home. I go to work, stop at my apartment and her house and check our messages, then make my way to the hospital.