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    “IF ONLY”

    Story written on July 15, 2007 by AmandaMG.
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    Story Shortlink: https://lesfan.com/?p=66222
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    A FANISODE STORY… ONLY WE RE-WRITE HISTORY…

     

    “Bev

    There was nothing else you could have done. It wasn’t your fault”

      

    “Nina

    I was so angry inside, kept so many things bottled up. Maybe it wasn’t good for the baby”

     

    “Bev

    Why were you so angry”

     

    “Nina

    Remember the other night when I told you that I hadn’t been feeling special to you, what I didn’t say was how much I felt rejected. I felt that you didn’t love me anymore, you were tired of me, and probably wanted something different”

     

    “Bev

     I would never want anybody else, you are my life”

     

    “Nina

    You were spending so much time at the CAC we barely saw each other in passing, and we really didn’t talk. When we did it seemed meaningless”

     

    “Bev

    We talked”

     

    “Nina

    Not the way we used to. The way you would hang on my every word like just hearing my voice gave you a high”

     

    “Bev

    It still does”

     

    “Nina

    It’s just that I have been feeling so lonely and neglected, like I no longer mattered”

     

    “Bev

    Nothing else matters to me as much as you”

     

    “Nina

    Not even your work” 

     

    “Bev

    If I thought for one minute that I would lose you because of my job I would give it up in a second. I’d rather be jobless and penniless with you than not have you by my side”

     

    “Bev turned and kissed Nina”

     

    “Bev

    You have to know how special you are. You are my heart, without you I can’t survive.  In fact I don’t want to live if you are not ‘living’ with me”

     

    “Nina

    You don’t know how much of a difference it makes hearing you say that”.

     

     “Bev held her all night, the only time she left her was to shower and dress for work”

     

    “At the office”

     

    “Jerome

    The Boss wants to know what carpenters you are going with for the show”

     

    “Bev

    I called Charles Ruby.  He is the best”

     

    “Jerome

    I’ll pass the word. How are you and Nina handling it”

     

    “Bev

    We are going to make it. Tell the Boss I’m leaving, you know after what I went through last night, the only thing that matters is Nina”

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    3. I really liked this story. You did a great job w/the dialogue. Too bad it didn’t happen like that on the LW.Keep posting. There’s a softness here that was absent in the story (TV).

    4. That was so moving I wish things had gone more like that on the show. I always say communication is the key, if they had talked more they would still be together. Although with IC you never can tell.

    6. This is awesome. I really am not a fan of ic because she is going to break our hearts. B&T are over in her mind and she could care a less about the fans. It would be nice if someone finally listened to the majority. She sounds like a dictator and not a producer. Oh I forgot they are one in the same.

    8. oh how i love when you guys rewrite history. good job. You actually made jenny useful in some way. that is some feat! I hope Bette and Tina have a conversation is so long overdue. pps

    10. MG,i see you brought the baby over her.you did a DAMNFINE job women,too bad we didnt get this way for reals,but we are talking about I.C Dipshit now arent we.thanks for sharing this i did vote on the other site to lady keep me posted MG. GOOOO METS!!!!!!!

    13. I totally agree AmandaMG…IF ONLY! If only IC had half a brain, right? I love your writing and this story! I have no choice but to wait for your next post, but please hurry! Thank you!

    14. AMG, you know my thoughts as I shared them already. This is an awesome Fic. I hope to see you proceed further along with this, as the weeks pass. You have my support for sure. Thanks for sharing it here as well. **Hugs**

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