Lara whirled around angrily at Dana. “So all that ‘I’m not ready for anything’, that was all bull *****. What you really meant was that you didn’t want me?” Dana looked away barely able to stand the hurt in Lara’s gentle eyes.

“No. It wasn’t bull *****.” Dana began and then caught sight of Leisha sneaking around the argument and out the door. She nodded as Leisha mouthed that she would call later and then she was gone and Dana turned her attention back to Lara. “I was telling the truth, Lara. I’m not ready for any big relationships, I’m just trying to figure out what to be on my own.”

“***** you , Dana. Don’t stand there and lie to me. You owe me more than that.”

“I’m not lying okay.”

“Well then explain. Explain to me why I never have a chance with you. Make me understand that even though she’s gone, you still can’t be with me. Why you still don’t love me.” Lara’s words were laced with anger and pain and Dana didn’t want to answer her, she didn’t want to hurt her anymore than she already had. It was only when the red head turned toward the door again that Dana finally let it out.

“I’m not over her. I’m not.” Dana felt the tears that came with admitting this out loud for the first time in months, but even through the tears Dana’s voice was dripping with anger and resentment that she couldn’t make herself stop loving Alice. “I walk around pretending that she doesn’t exist, but the truth is that I still love her with every inch of everything in me. I still reach for her in my sleep and wake up and realize that she’s not there. I still turn around to tell her things., to talk to her when I’m here alone because I forget that she’s not there. I think about her every second of every day and if it was possible to think about her more then I would. I can’t love you, because I am still in love with her. I’m not over her.” Dana repeated. “But I will be. I just need some time.”

Lara turned around calming down a little at the pain present in Dana’s voice. “You’ll never get over her Dana.” Lara let the words sink in before she continued. “Look around you. She’s everywhere in this house. She helped pick it out, she decorated it, she lived in it. You say you’re ready to get over her, but you’re not.” Lara shook her head. “How long has it been since she moved? How long since you gave her all of your furniture? Months, Dana. And you still don’t have any. You haven’t even attempted to get any.”