Realizing she was giving a lecture rather than having a conversation Bette started again .. This time not avoiding looking at Tina .. "T, why didn’t you tell me?"

"tell you .. and never have sex again!"

Confused .. The brunette asked furiously "what?!"

Standing up and walking a few steps away from the couch .. Tina answered defensively "since the day I told you .. We never made love .. You haven’t even tried to!"

"It not easy to deal with it Tina .. and I’m not saying it would’ve been easier to deal with it then Tina .. But keeping it from me was not the answer"

"why not? Ha? It worked just fine .. Me .. keeping it a secret was not the cause of our problems Bette" answered Tina .. Her tone now slightly higher …

"no Tina .. No .." the brunette stood up and continued .. "I’m sure it had an effect on our relationship .. Not knowing what it was doesn’t mean it wasn’t there …."

Tina didn’t reply ..

"or may be it defined our relationship .. The fact that something this huge is kept away from me .. It’s not about why you should have told me Tina .. It’s about why you felt you shouldn’t"

Tina lost it .. Her tone is not just high anymore … Now she’s screaming at Bette instead of talking to her …

"I didn’t want it to be part of my LIFE anymore .. my present and my future .. I wanted to keep it out.. and you are all that .. YOU ARE MY LIFE! …. I had to keep it out from you" with that she pursed into tears ..

The way Tina said it .. the screaming .. To someone who didn’t speak English he might have thought those loving, honest words were filled with hate ..

And to Bette .. The tone made the reason logical .. The way Tina screamed them made her believe in them .. She was finally satisfied .. She settled down keeping her gaze on her lover .. her breathing now deep and rhythmic .. Unlike Tina’s .. Who were raging .. Even her breathing screamed anger … But not for long ..
She locked her eyes on her partner’s .. Slowly calming down .. Catching the same rhythm Bette was breathing in .. She looked hypnotized .. Totally focusing on Bette like if at that moment there was nothing , no-one in this world but her ..

The brunette stepped forwarded .. Slowly .. Not breaking their eye contact .. As if she was afraid she might startle the blond and snap her out of her hypnotized state …

She finally reached her .. and placed her hands gently on the sides of her waist .. Then on her cheeks .. Bringing her face closer so she can kiss her .. a soft , gentle , long kiss .. and then again .. and again .. and again …

A series of ‘safe , soft’ kisses .. The rhythm of those kisses , and the sound their lips made as they parted calmed them both ..

Now Tina was ready to talk again …

"you are my best friend .. And if you weren’t also the love of my life I might have told you … Telling Jenny was easy .. I didn’t care what she would think of me .. I didn’t care if she knew or not as long as she wouldn’t tell you .. And she couldn’t care much about knowing or not knowing .. What happened in my past won’t affect her .. Won’t hurt her … ‘we only shared a movie.. But you and i shared a life!’"