She nodded her head.

I need to call someone. Can you wait for a second?

I ran to the receptionist desk and dialed MJs number. I did not want to cancel on her, but this was more important. MJ?…Hey its meAbout that. Im really sorry for doing this but I have to cancel on us for tonightSomething very important came up or I wouldnt otherwiseThanks for understanding. I will catch up with you later thanMiss you.

All the while on the phone I kept one eye on my mother, afraid that she would bolt. She only stood there and looked at me however, thinking what I had no idea.

Im ready. How about we go get some coffee?

Thats fine.

We walked out together. We were both silent on the way to the coffee shop. I couldnt help but steal a look now and again. This was my mother. MY MOTHER. I still could not get over that fact. In so many ways, she looked just like me. I would have known that she was my mother from anywhere.

We sat down in a secluded corner of the coffee shop.

I looked into her eyes and saw no warmth there. She might be my mother but she was as cold as ice. Now I started to wonder why did she want to see me. What brought this on?

Since that night at the club, I was curious. So I asked around, and here we are.

That was not much of answer but I went with it for now. How are we going to proceed with this?

I have something to tell you but I guess I can answer a few questions beforehand.

Now I was even more uneasy than ever. Something was going on here, and I had no idea what. Just play it by ear.

Okay I guess I want to know why. Why did you abandon me?

I tried to no care, but I couldnt help myself. I wanted a reason, a reason as to why everything has happened to me. I wanted to know why I had to endure ***** when all of the other kids out there were protected and loved. WHY?

Look it has nothing to do with you Shane. Im not made out to be a mother. It is as simple as that.

How ***** unsatisfying!!! Then why are you here? I could feel the seething anger rising like bile in my throat, but I did not want to give her the satisfaction. She did not care, so why should I?

Im here to tell you to forget about me. I have nothing for you, an empty shell. Im leaving tonight.

I sat there and watched as she stood up. Think of this as the first and last motherly thing that you will ever get from me. Stay away Shane, there is nothing for you. She turned away.

Something inside of me was screaming. I could barely contained myself as I watched her walked away for I guess the last time. I stood up suddenly causing the chair to skitter back dangerously. The only thought that was going through my head was that I gotta get out of hear. I needed to see MJ. My heart was frozen over.

I could barely breath. I was practically in a panic. How was this possible? I didnt even know her, so how could I hurt so much? Was I so stupid as still hope for a mother to come and protect me against the world?

At her door, I did not even bother to knock and instead barged in. I needed to see her face.

What I saw killed me. Everything shattered; I shattered.