…JAIL?!

“Why is she in jail!?”

“She was found driving under the influence of alcohol”

Great.

“I’ll be there soon. Thank you” I hung up. “FUCK!”

“Carmen?” Helena asked

“I have to go”

“What’s wrong baby girl?”

“Nikky’s in jail, I have to go pick her up…”

“What??” they all said.

“Um, I’ll talk to you guys later… call me if anything happens, okay? Bye!” I said running out to catch a cab.

I can’t fucking believe this… GOD! Give me more if I deserve it!

I go in, give my name, show them my ID, pay the bill and the get Nikky.

She looks destroyed and yet she’s smiling. She was never much of a drinker, a partier yes… but a drinker? NO.

I hold her because she clearly can stand on her own and I try to get her into the car… she says nothing. She laughs. I, do not. I’m very mad. Once we get in the car… the one Nikky was arrested driving

“What the fuck Nik?”

“Don’t, don’t yell ok?”

“YES I WILL!… You got arrested, driving drunk… IN MY RENTED CAR?!”

“…This is your rented car”

“I KNOW…. SHUT UP…”

She laughs at me.

“Look you can’t do this, okay? Why are you getting drunk in the middle of the day?”

“Because you don’t want me…”

“Oh god Nik… I do… forget it. I’m not gonna talk to you like this … lets, lets just get you home.” I get the car started and drive home.

“Soo… are we going to the house you promised me… or to our rented hotel room?” I ignore her. “Are you mad??” Yes. I don’t answer. “What was the officer’s name again?” Nothing…. “Wow you ARE ignoring me…”

“trying to.”

“You shouldn’t ignore me”

“Why not?”

“Because um, I’m someone you need to get to know… to love”

“Oh really?”

“Oh yes”

“So if I know you I’ll love you”

“Yes”

“I know you… and I love you”

“I know”

“You really like yourself don’t you?”

“Just hiding my pain…” I can’t help but laugh. We get home and when we go to the bathroom to clean her up she immediately starts throwing up.

Don’t wonder why people go crazy… wonder why they don’t.

In the face of all we can loose in a day….In an instant. Wonder what the hell it is that hold us all together….