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    I’ve Been Expecting You. Chapter 8.

    Story written on June 17, 2005 by thewhonow.
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    My Life Is A mess.

    Two whole days I was gone. Dont ask for all the details because I cant remember half of them. All I can remember is the feeling of being high and how good that feeling was and there wasnt a single time when I thought I didnt want to experience that high again, the desire to remove my soul to a place of safety. I was falling deeper and deeper in to obscurity. The monster was getting a firm grip. Only I was too stupid or too blind to admit that to myself. Besides I knew I could do this and not get burned. Just like I knew I could stop. Any time I wanted to. Couldnt I?

     

    I had to go to the reception desk to ask the manager to unlock my door. Id lost my key card. Just like I was on the verge of losing my mind.

     

    Are you okay Miss knight? He asked. He looked at me with genuine concern in his eyes. I liked him. He was a nice guy. Always so polite.

     

    Fine. I replied smiling at him.

     

    F ucked Up.

     

    I rrational.

     

    N eurotic.

     

    E motional.

     

    Im fine. Just fine.

     

    I placed the key card in the slot, turned the *****, closed the door behind me, and slid to the floor. I sat there with my head cradled on my knees, and cried my heart out.

     

    I thought about calling Bette, I even thought about calling my parents. In the end I did neither, I just went to bed.

     

    I didnt need, anybody else anyway, I could handle this alone. After all it was just a bit of fun, I could stop anytime I wanted to. 

     

    It must have been about five hours later when I awoke from my tormented sleep. Sweat was seeping from every pore in my body and I was cold, it was thirty degrees outside and I felt like I was enveloped in a cloak of ice. My head hurt, my lungs hurt when I breathed, I was shaking like a leaf. I was craving.

     

    Just have one. Youll be okay. Youll feel better.

     

    NO. It wont be okay. You cant just have one. You know that.

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    1. Wow I could picture her now sitting there with it right in front of her, I know all to well that internal fight you go through. Will it take a overdose for someone to help her?? Withdrawl is setting in and can she take it??
      Great update I was getting worried that you had given up. I love this story your writing is so real, if you haven’t had first hand experience then you are more then an awesome story teller. I hope I will see another post soon

    2. Yeah, this is absolutely terrific. I hope Tina lets Bette help her. But I love how you’re developing this great story and didn’t have Tina run into Bettes arms when they met in the club after the concert. This is much truer to life and we’re all really enjoying it. Great job.

    4. Awesome! your writing is great..please keep going! I hope Tina let Bette help her..although sometimes an OD must happen for you to start get help or let someone help you. Post soon!.

    5. I’ve just started reading your story and i have to say it is amazing. I like the fact that it goes at such a good pace, Bette and Tina don’t automatically reconcile. I think that’s why your story stands out so well.Also I just wanted to know who the songs you use in stories are by or do you right them. If you do they too are amazing.

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