”me, yes! I have to call…”

”you scared me Bette”

Bette finally looked back at her and could see the concern in Tina, her gaze softened and she lowered her wall a little ”when she told me she was expecting a baby I got angry, more than with her, with myself… for this situation…” Bette twisted her lip again holding back the tears ”here I have so much time to think like this, I made the thing bigger, the thoughts piled up and I had a terrible night… today was no different and then I felt nauseous… it was time to let go” Bette looked at Tina with pure sincerity ”I knew my reason Tina, I didn’t want to make anyone feel sorry for my disappointment in love, everyone here today knew what happened between me and her and in a few days, everyone will know about the pregnancy.”

”do you really think you’d be pitiful Bette?”

”it’s undeniable Tina…I’m already pitiful by nature” the tears began to rise ”a psopostito” she tried to keep her voice steady from the emotions ”I’m sorry for this morning, I was a bitch, I didn’t deserve your kindness.”

”you were a bitch..” Tina repeated looking at the brunette, then placed a hand on Bette’s ”but you deserve my kindness Bette, I feel it…I feel that I want to do something for you if you let me”.

Bette gave in, that look, those sincere eyes, Tina’s hand covering hers.

The first tears came out of her eyes and Bette squeezed them.

”good heavens Tina…I feel so…so out of myself. If only you had seen me as I was before, you would realize how impossible it is now.” Bette cried, wiping her tears with the elbow of her free hand, her left hand was still under Tina’s and she wanted to leave it there ”I don’t feel who the hell I am anymore”.

Tina let Bette shed a few tears as she stood there in silence, tracing small circles with her thumb on the back of the brunette’s hand.

When Bette had calmed down she took a sip of water absentmindedly combing her curls from her forehead, she swallowed looking at Tina silently beside her.