”No, I meant about Bette…what do you think.”

Tina sighed ”I’ll know more when I see the results Helena, the situation seems very delicate but I don’t know her as well as you do…well…”

Helena looked at her ”it’s been like this for about a year, she started to feel faint, dizzy and arrhythmia in the middle of the night, obviously we did all the tests and here it is…initially with the drugs it went well, but then Tina…” Helena sighed ”the situation got worse, I put her on the transplant list without her knowing”

”what did you do?” Tina screamed and Helena put her hand over her mouth to silence her.

They got out of the elevator and Helena dragged the blonde into the personnel office.

Helena sinked exhausted in the bordeaux leather armchair behind the desk, the arms hanging over the armrests, the exhausted gaze.

”Tina she is …” Helena sighed ”hides the symptoms ok? You will notice it … pretends to feel good in front of you and then collapses with someone closer … she looks like a lion but in reality she is frightened! She has no control of her situation and this is killing her, she believes that her life is finished with the VAD but in reality she would give her a push for transplantation. ”

”You can’t force her … she is an adult woman!”

”Yes, but it’s a dear friend of mine … we were also together for a few months ago, we tried but Bette is like that …. Bette.” Helena could not find other words.

Tina sat on the armchair in front ”What exactly do you want from me Helena? I am not a cardiac surgeon, you take care of that … you and your staff …”

”Yes, but I want the best for her, now that you are here, you are the best to control her neurological situation .. and then your opinion matters for me more than any other person.” Tina looked at her uncertain ”I listen … I don’t involve … that is, I love her, she is a dear friend and colleague as for Alice and Shane, but it is not a sentimental thing as Tina think … I want her to heal, that No mistakes are made, that she returns to her life … she loves her job, everyone loves her ”Helena Rise” last week she was in her pediatric department, she got accompanied and felt bad as soon as she returned to room.”

Tina sighed ”ok I’ll do the best, I just want to put too many expectations, in these cases things are hanging on a thread you know better than me …”.

”I know it is so…and thank you” Helena smiled genuinely.

”now I’m going, I have too many people to meet…and I have a consultation in orthopedics”

”Wow you will meet another ex of Bette”.

”Dr. Torres?”

Helena nodded ”why does it seem so strange to you? I didn’t think Bette was gay…”

”actually no” Tina thought about it ”to see her she would seem so straight, not that you should be labeled, but you know, that look so composed and chic..she seemed like a marriageable one. perfect and happy family, married in church.”

”instead you’re wrong” Helena laughed out loud ”God, if she could hear you…Bette could be the president of the lesbian world, but you’ll just have to know her…every woman in here has fallen at her feet and she has only welcomed a few.”

”Well but that’s not what I’m interested in… anyway” it wasn’t that true in reality.

”well and to let you know the hospital, about Callie Torres, don’t trust her… she’s a bitch, she’s only here because my mother knows she’s the best in the field…”

”I’m not looking for trust Hel, I’m here to work… the transfer was already difficult with Angelica so small. I just want peace for me and for her.”

This was true.

Tina wanted serenity, after the relationship with Arizona that had turned into a real battle she asked for better for her, but above all for Angelica, her daughter was now ahead of everything and everyone.