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    Lifeline – Chapter 9

    Story written on January 10, 2011 by gr8d8.
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    The List and The voice in Bette’s head.

     

    Bette could not fully understand why she felt such a heightened sense of tenderness toward all the everyday things she and Tina shared; like the photos and movies and books and music, except to say that she knew in a profound way now that the sweetness her wife brought to her life could disappear forever in the blink of an eye and she was powerless to stop it. 

    The notion was so frightening that it shook her to her core.

    Life was incredibly frail, incredibly ephemeral.  It had to be honored and revered every day, and we could do no less for the people who filled it  with  love and meaning and purpose.  She would never take that for granted again.  Tina’s life was a gift to her.  A gift that had nearly been taken away, and could yet be taken.

    Bette wanted more than anything to scream at the top of her lungs, to rail with a raised fist against a world that would consent to exist without Tina in it, and yet she knew she couldn’t fight for her with anger. 

    This fight was about love. 

    If she understood anything, it was that.  She would just have to forge a path through her fear and find the strength to fight for them.  Which brought her to The List.  The items on it were her arsenal.  She believed that with her help, T would fight too. She smiled at the thought. 

    Tina had so many facets, so many layers.  She had a toughness and a softness that lived side-by-side in her, to Bette’s utter consternation. 

    Sometimes she would fight and fight and fight for something, and then when Bette was completely worn down, she would concede.   Exasperated, Bette would ask with frustration,

    “T, if you were willing to fight about it so hard, why did you give in?” 

    And she would reply in her blithe way,

    “Because you obviously wanted it more, baby,” and  she would flash that little grin with the one raised eyebrow, then shrug and throw up her hands, and Bette wouldn’t know whether she wanted to strangle her or throw her to the ground and have her way with her – sometimes both at the same time, she chuckled ruefully. 

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    1. Ahhh…Heartbreakingly beautiful, Nell. Tears welled in my eyes too as I read and re-read The List, the dialogue in Bette’s head and Neruda’s immortal words. Thank you, Nell, from the bottom of my heart. I can’t remember the last time I read a post as poignant, as romantic and as poetic as this. A thousand times thank you for sharing this beautiful love story, Nell. Hugs, mm =)

    2. That was so heartbreaking and beautiful, it made me cry. I left it for a while and just came back to read it again …. and it made me cry again! Thank you so much for this powerful and moving story.

    5. My Lord, I’ve read a lot of beautiful love stories on this site over the years, some made me cry buckets and made me hurt and sad all at the same time. But this chapter is the greatest example of complete love and adoration I have ever read anywhere at anytime in my life. It points out the complete connection they have with each other. At first I thought it was showing that connection they have with each other, and that may be your intention but, whatever your intent was this chapter has exceeded it. It is the most poignant thing I’ve ever read regarding the love between two poeple. Bette is famous for making lists but, this one is so very complete and beautiful showing just how much she loves Tina, the video that Bette mentioned at the end and the Neruda poem took my breath away and made me cry buckets all over again. Thanks for sharing this wonderful story. Hopefully Tina will wake up after listening to all the things that Bette wants to play for her and I think this will do the trick and, of course, Bette talking to her. Simply beautiful and amazing. Thanks again.

    6. I hope you come back very soon and continue this story. Yes it’s sad but very beautiful. I love the conversation in Bette’s head and her devotion to Tina, so very touching.

    7. I finally caught up with incredible story. I know that you started this story way before the AZ situation but it seems to fit what is happening in real life. I trust that you keep Bette from going crazy and making herself sick while Tina is fighting her own battle to live.

    10. Hi gr8d8, This is so touching and emotional. The real shame is that often in life it takes life-threating events to focus us on the important things. Bette and Tina have such a complete connection. This story encapsulates this perfectly. I just adore it. Many thanks for sharing it with me. A Fan.

    12. This is so beautifully written. You have expressed the love they have for each other incredibly well. Your characters really come to life the way you have written them. I’m really enjoying reading this story. Thanks so much for posting this.

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