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“Baby?” Tina called, dragging Bette back from wherever she went. Tina was worried, Bette kept on moving further and further away from her as the day went on. Tugging on Bette’s hand, Tina guided Bette to the table and handed her a high ball glass. “To us.” Tina toasted, clinking glasses with a slightly dazed Bette.
Smiling, Bette let herself get swept up in Tina’s infectious joy. “To us.” Bette echoed. Be thankful for today, she reminded herself. Be thankful.
Tina walked into the Planet, intent on grabbing some dinner for her and Bette. Initially she had intended to cook, but the movie ended up being a marathon, and then Bette had fallen asleep, her head on Tina’s lap and she looked to peaceful to be disturbed. That was before she became restless, her dream obviously turned from good to bad and the broken whisper of “Tee” nearly broke her.
She couldn’t leave until Bette settled, then when she did she wrote a note and nearly ran from the house with her keys. Whatever Bette had been dreaming wasn’t pleasant, and it was about her and she was too scared to question it. Too scared to be around when Bette finally woke.
Cowardly, sure. But it is what it is, if only she knew what ‘it’ was.
“Tina!”
Tina turned in the direction of the voice, smiling when she saw Kit walking towards her. “Kit” she greeted, dragging the elder Porter sister into a hug. “How are you?”
Returning the embrace Kit smiled. “I’m good, but I was going to ask you the same thing.”
The way the sentence was worded gave Tina pause, drawing back she question “How I am?”
Nodding, Kit tapped her hand on her thigh. “Bette came to see me yesterday afternoon. I was worried…” She started, until the look of shock on Tina’s face made the words fade away.
“She went to you?” Tina asked, confused, “yesterday afternoon she left the house. I didn’t know where she was going, didn’t know what had her so upset.” Tina explained. Why would Bette have gone to Kit, someone she hadn’t really talked to for years?
Kit cocked her head, trying to evaluate the situation. “She felt like she was being rejected Tina.”
Shaking her head, Tina jumped to her own defence. “We talked about that, I wasn’t rejecting her I was just scared.”
Resting her hands on Tina’s forearm, Kit guided Tina to a table outside. “Honey, you don’t understand.” It’d been a long time since Kit felt she could help her sister, and she wasn’t going to mess this up, not if she could help it. Grasping Tina’s limp hand gently she asked, “how would you feel if all your life people had looked down on you?”
Tina shook her head, “No one has ever looked down on Bette.” Removing her hand from Kit’s grasp, she rubbed her face. “No one.”
Tapping her hand on the table to get Tina’s attention, Kit stated. “Honey, when did you get so blind?”
Tina blinked once, twice. Clearing her throat she crocked, “what?”
Sighing, Kit leaned back in her chair and regarded the women before her. Her sister-in-law. The sole reason that her sister still talked to her, despite the number of time the Kit had hurt her through her addictions, her lifestyle. Through running away every single time Bette tried to help, and those times that Bette needed her.
“She’s not black enough to be black, not white enough to be white and to top it off she is a Lesbian. How much ‘otherness’ do you think she has survived in her lifetime, Tina?”
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It’s terrible if somebody is excluded because of that not alike to the others. The peoples hate it if somebody is different than they. I know what feeling the exclusion though I’m not half-blood. :o( Anyway I’m glad how you wrote a newer thought-provoking story to us.
Hi dear sweet Deean! Wow! You left us speechless here. This story compiled too many things to digest and think about. Bette not only fears that Tina may reject her for not being absolutely white, but also because the search for the donnor became a nightmare to them. It is comprehensible that the way Bette is lookin at it, she is afraid that Tina may leave her if she finds a man who could willingly get her pregnant and provide a “steady” and “safer” life for her. Unfortunately, what we are also observing is that instead of being open about her inner demons and doubts, she hides them and goes further into herself. This withdrawal will only bring a terrible lack of communication, which could escalate into a breakup. Thanks for sharing with us such poignant story. PPS Hugs & kisses on both your cheeks.- Lu & Marsh (Proud Salsa Aunties to the loving JC, Eunichick, ZLFAN, T_Daze, Melrose231 and Tias Adoradas to Patpez)
It’s funny but when I look at JB playing Bette, I just see a person. Not a white person, not a black person, just a person seemingly colorless. But I’ve read how JB herself often felt invisible and “other”. It’s odd how this stunning person could feel self-conscious and maybe sometimes, not enough. Human nature is odd, eh?
as always you’re writing is flawless… “otherness” is so interesting as someone who is psuedo bi racial ( being born in a different country and being raised in America) I can relate to Bette’s struggle in this. It’s hard to find an identity if you dont quite fit into certain groups. I’ve learned though to just create my own space and those that love me will just see me for me and not how i look or where i was born or who i love but me just simply me… Great start really got me thinking!
Wonderful and Brilliant. Thank you.
Brilliant and so true. You have to be black or part black to understand. Thaks for posting.
This was a great story.
Great story I wish u wud continue. I am so glad u haven’t forgotten ur other stories n hope u wud post soon:)PLEASE
Brilliant & I’m looking forward to more. Thanks.
I had just watched Season 1 episode 1-2 last night. I’m black but you don’t have to be black to understand Bette’s position. There are many people of mixed race and every culture has their issues with it. When you aren’t one or the other people will treat you differently. Self Identity is hard when others can’t accept you for who you are (not by choice). Jennifer Beals talked about how she was treated growing up and how it made her a loner in childhood. Children and adults can be so cruel. I believe that JB got the best of both cultures, she is a beautiful woman.