As Jenny came back out of the hallway Shane was there talking with the others and drank shots.
“Hey Jenny, where were you?”, Shane smiled at her and laid an arm around Jennys shoulder to pull her to her side.
“Just looking for someone…..hey you are smiling”, Jenny noticed laughing.
“I think it´s just the alcohol”, Alice grinned and pointed down at the bar where a lot of empty glasses where standing.
“What did she say?”, Bette whispered into Jenny´s ear as the music started to play.

Shane felt she alcohol rushing through her blood and it brought her sweet release.
Since Carmen was gone she crawled into drugs. Alcohol, coke, oxy everything she got.
She couldn´t get through the night without all that stuff.
She knew that this sh*t was eating her alive but without Carmen living wasn´t worth it, it was simply beyond all bearings.
She tried to keep everything away from her friends but Jenny seemed to know it. It was sometimes like Jenny could look right through her.
But Jenny kept quite.
She knew more about self destruction than anybody else of her friends, she just understood.
“Where do I know that song from?”, she thought to herself, disturbed in her deep thoughts and turned around to the DJ spot.
There she was. It hit her like a stone in the chest.
The time seemed to stand still. She just saw her and she was even more beautiful than she remebered her.
It hurted to see her standing there.
She had played this song at the opening from Wax. She had played this song for her.
“Shane…Shane”, she heard Alice´s voice somehwere far away.
“Wha…what?”, she said and turned her head for a second to Alice.
She couldn´t take her look from the women she would love till the end of time.
“Go over to her”, Alice said and pushed Shane forward.
“No…I can´t”, Shane tried to turn back but Alice gave Shane her “if looks could kill” look and so she turned around and headed slowly to the DJ spot.

“Hello”, Carmen heard a familiar voice behind her.
She stared at Shane who appered right next to her.
“Shane”, was the only thing she could say and it was only a whisper.

She saw how skinny Shane was, how sick she looked.