Love got you in. Pt 4 Kit I,.. I think I caused this. I created it. No, sweet heart, we are responsible for our own actions. I have to go see her. (At the hospital) Excuse me,…. Hi, umm Im looking for someone. Name please. Marina Ferrer 5th floor room 154 c. Your name? asked the candy striper Jenny Schecter Heres your pass, elevator is down the hall to your left. Jenny turned to leave the reception area headed for the elevator. Anxiety building for she did not know what was to come, or more importantly she asked herself How am I going to react when I see her. Becoming unsure now if she should even be her, her doubts were quickly filled with resent for her own behaviors which caused this entire fiascal. Pressing the 5th floor button she breathed heavily as if the air would give her the strength to overcome the demon who had managed to turn her life completely around. My life Jenny said and sighed happily as the thought of the happiness in her life was when she was with Marina. She reached the room. Looking in Jenny noticed two trays of food on the table one was half eaten and the other was full. Great she said as she withdrew her head from the room and stood with her back to the wall outside of the door. Is someone in there with her? Okay, never mind that Jenny, she quipped talking to herself now, You get yourself in there and see if shes okay After one more breath Jenny rounded the corner and walked inside. (Fifteen minutes earlier) Shane please, I dont want any more food. A tired Marina now arguing with Shane. You have to eat something No. I want to go. I have work to do. I dont understand why everyone is making such big noise about me. Because you had a bad reaction, it was like you were having a humongous night mare, thats why you had to be restrained. The doctor said that you had to be monitored just in case you relapsed. Pausing for a minute Marina was still trying to cope with the possible loss of Jenny. She doesnt want to see me anymore Shane. Looks like were in the same boat Shane replied. Marina now concerned with Shanes own welfare asked her, Cherri? shaking her head in a yes, Shane looked down to the floor. It was just a big misunderstanding. Sighing now Shane relaxed in the chair, trying not to let in that she was really more hurt than anything. Shane, you need to get some rest. Ill be fine, you should go home. Said Marina No, Im not going to leave you sitting here by yourself. Its okay, Alice will be here after a while. Ill see you later then? Yeah, Shane said and got up and kissed Marina on the cheek I’ll be back soon. And with that Shane walked out of the room The hospital was quiet, and Marina silently thanked the nurses for leaving her alone for most of the day. Although they sometimes came in and did their procedural checks, most of them were not trying to solicit conversation. Marina rolled over on her side looking out of the window wishing she could be outside to enjoy the sun. She heard what she thought was someone entering the room and leaving again. A few minutes later someone entered the room again. Waiting for the nurse to check the machine fill out the chart and leave Marina remained on her side trying to fain like she was asleep. She heard a voice whispering, Marina, I am so sorry. It couldnt be she thought. Jenny, my Jenny came here to visit me? Still remaining very still Jenny continued. I feel so bad; I didnt know how to handle everything. It was too much at one time, your confession, Robin, the gun… it just seemed that you had it out for me. Marina waited in earnest. God, you know, Marina now hearing the sorrow and truthfulness in her voice. I wish I knew how I had felt about, about everything. You had me so completely wrapped around you thought I would burst, and I didnt know how to handle my feelings. The truth is that I am so in love with you it scares me. It scares me, because I have never connected with someone as I do with you. A smile formed on the lips of Marina as she listened intently to what Jenny was trying to say. Wanting to grab Jenny and tell her how much she too loved her she just laid there. Im going to leave now, Get well soon. And with that Jenny left. Now hearing that Jenny reacted out of fear not anger eased her own inhibitions about their relationship. Feeling that she still had a chance to prove with love for Jenny; Marina felt that she should try and take things slowly, and to do it right careful not to make the same mistake. Thinking now that since Jenny did not know that Marina had heard her confession, she felt that until Jenny comes and speaks to her face to face that she would not reveal knowing Jennys feelings for her. Smiling now happily, Marina reeled at the thought of the possibility of being with her Jenny. Content, Marina closed her eyes and dreamed of the day when everything they had been fighting for would be over. ** Having been out of the hospital for a couple of days, Marina was anxious to get back to the Planet. She had been very difficult to keep at her home, with Alice, Shane, and Dana making constant house calls it was not easy to leave. But today I am she said aloud to herself. It was 4:30 in the morning and she was preparing to head for work. I wonder if I will see Jenny today? sighing contemplating their initial meeting, she smiled ruefully at the thought of Jennys words in the hospital. ** Marina was back to herself greeting customers, placing orders, and being her normal charming self. Alice was sitting at the table looking somewhat distraught. Marina had heard about Bette and Tina and was just as surprised with everyone else in West Hollywood at Bettes infidelity. Marina walked over to the table with a mocha latte for Alice and sat down. Hello Alice, how are you today.? Not too good today. She said reaching for the coffee. Tina had another rough night last night. Taking a sip she went on. I could just kill Bette for doing that to Tina; I dont know what the ***** she was thinking. Angry now Alice huffed. Yes, that is terrible, but…. Tina is strong she will make it though these times. Reassuring Alice Marina patted her hand and told her not to worry and to just be there for her. Just then Bette walked in wearing sunglasses she failed to remove. She went straight to the got a coffee and left without saying a word. What, did she think that no one would recognize her? said Alice Now, lets not be too hard on Bette. She has been through a lot also. Alice looked at Marina sort of annoyed by her response, rolled her eyes and turned her head to find a very dazed Jenny staring at Marina. Well Ive gotta get back to work. Ill see you tonight then at Radar? Marina looked up to receive Jennys gaze responded to Alice with a nod of her head. Ok see ya, Hi Jenny. Alice said on her way out of the Planet. Marinas chest filled with so much yearning at the sight of Jenny. Not wanting to let Jenny in on her secret she put on a big smile stood and said Hello Jenny, can I get you anything? Wow Marina thought, she looks absolutely stunning. It was true even in her work cloths Jenny had an air around her that had not gone unnoticed by Marina and several other people in the planet. Her hair was pulled loosely in a pony tail, with several stray strands of hair unrestrained making a perfect little frame around her face. Her eyes were deep and piercing as she looked at Marina. She is so beautiful No, thank you. I was just in the neighborhood, and I wanted to see if you were doing alright. I dont know what you are talking about, Marina smile remained constant on her face. but I am fine none the less. Preventing Jenny from speaking about her accident she quickly said Well if youll excuse me I have to get back to work, but it was good seeing you again Jenny. Leaving Jenny standing there, she turned and bused the adjacent table. Jenny, she said catching Jenny before she left a few of us are going to Radar tonight, and it would nice if you came. Hoping that she would accept the offer, Marina waited for her answer. Umm…. said Jenny thinking about it she answered yeah sure. Ill meet you guys there.