Previously….

DANA:  Bette.  Tina.  Stop fighting for one minute and listen to me!

Bette and Tina turned around and stared at the television screen.

"T, did you know that was on there?" Bette asked.

"No," Tina replied.  "I was going to ask you the same thing."

They both walked back to the couch and sat back down.

TBC…

Dana is staring into the camera but isn’t saying anything.  She has a bandana and hat on her head.  Her hair had fallen out from the chemo treatments.

DANA: (Takes a deep breath) First off, don’t go freaking out or anything  I took the tape so I could leave you a message from the heart, something I couldn’t tell you face-to-face.  Listen to me completely before you go pointing fingers, jumping to conclusions or fighting again, cause what I got to say is going to hurt, it will even make you mad, but keep an open mind until I finish.  By now, I should be gone on to a better, pain free place.  I’ll be happy to see Mr. Piddles again.  I really miss him.  (There is a long pause as she is staring at Mr. Piddles’ picture.  She sniffs and wipes a tear.)  I’m sorry.  I don’t know if you’ve noticed or not, but you don’t talk like you used to.  Bette you get to absorbed with work that you don’t have any time for Tina, your friends, or yourself.  You cheated on Tina instead of being there for her.  You didn’t allow yourself to grieve for the child you guys lost.  And don’t think I forgot about you Tina.  You didn’t take into consideration that Bette should have been the first to know when your pregnancy test was positive, not next to last.  You knew Bette was under a lot of stress from work and when she did try to put an effort back into the relationship, you shut her out.  You made her feel inadequate, like she wasn’t wanted or needed.  Bette, you were so use to making all the decisions, but when you were to busy with work, Tina had to make some decisions for you guys.  Grant it, she should have talked to you about some of them sooner.  Now you two have a beautiful little girl to love and care for.  There is so much love between you guys.  I just wish you could put away your stubborn prides and continue to move forward as the happy loving family that you are.  Tina, why are you throwing away the best thing that’s ever happened to you, the love of your life?  I can see how much Bette has changed since she woke up from her affair.  She realized that you were the love of her life and that she was throwing you away.  You being as hurt as you were, shut her out and got yourself together.  I’m glad you two are back together for Angelica’s sake, but Tina, you’ve got to stop throwing Bette’s affair up every time things get tough, especially when you’re having feelings for men again.  Take my advice, you guys.  Don’t throw away the best thing ever to happen you your life!   If you go ahead and explore this feeling, all you are going to do is make a bad situation worse.  Bette will leave you alone, as a partner, but you will have to deal with the fact that she is Angelica’s mom to.  I guess what I’m trying to say is life’ is to short to be to proud to forgive your partner, especially if both of you are genuinely sorry for what happened and are willing to put it in the past and leave it there.  Don’t do like I have done.  I have always loved Alice, but never had the courage to tell her and when she finally kissed me, my world lit up like a spotlight.  I was devastated when I ended it with Laura because of that asshole manager I had.  When I met Tonya, everything happened so fast.  She finally got my parents to accept me for who I am.  I am grateful for that, but she was too much.  She was taking money from me.  But Alice, she has been my best friend for years.  She knows me better than anyone.  I love her, but I didn’t want to go to fast and being with her as a partner, I missed my best friend to talk to.  When I saw Laura again, I knew right away that if I didn’t try the relationship out again, I would always wonder if I would’ve never ended the relationship, how things would’ve been.  So, I pursued my feelings.  I was wrong to do that and now it is too late.  Now I’m dying and I can’t put Alice through that kind of pain.  I still love her.  She’s the love of my life.  I just hope she can forgive me for being this way.  I hope she can forgive me for leaving her behind.  I never meant to hurt her.  I wish I had more time.  I just want her to be happy and me being in the shape I’m in, I wouldn’t be happy because she would be making a fuss over me.  Why did this have to happen to me? (Tears are now falling from her eyes)  Everything in my life was finally coming together.  I came out, my parents have finally accepted me for who I am, I’ve finally found the love of a lifetime, and it’s too late! (Dana pauses for a moment to catch her breath.) That’s why I’m telling you guys; don’t throw away something that’s meant to be.  Bette, love, respect, communicate, and forgive Tina.  Leave work at work!  Tina, love, communicate, respect, and forgive Bette.  You’ll never know when the end is near and you may never get the chance to make things right.  Let the past stay in the past.  Don’t dig it up!  Don’t shut each other out and don’t go exploring elsewhere, when you got the best thing you’ll ever have sitting next to you.  Don’t fuck that up!!!  You two belong together.  You two were destined to be together.  Bette, don’t be afraid to show your feelings to Tina. She is there for you to help you thru whatever problem you are having.  Same for you Tina.  Bette is there for you to help you thru your troubles.  If, by the time you are watching this you are not together, find your ways back to each other.  If you are not together and are watching this tape together by accident, don’t you think that you should be together.  Don’t you think that both of your destinies are to be together?  Think about what I’ve told you.  (There’s a knock at the door.)  Shit!  There’s Alice.  Just remember, I love you guys and you’ll always have me in your hearts!

and the tape went snowy

TBC…