What the ***** am I doing? The baby needs me and I need herhow am I suppose to take care of her if Im in Sydney?

She sits there quietly contemplating her decision not even noticing the smell of Chinese food all over the housethe phone rings and Bette comes out of her trance

Hello?

Bette?

Tina?

YeahI got your messageummm. is everything ok?

Bette missed the sound of Tinas voice

Bette?

Im hereI justreally need to talk to youcan you come over or are you busy?

Knowing Helena wouldnt be there until late that night

No, Im not busyumm Ill be there in a few
She hangs up without a good bye

Bette sits on the couch Im ***** responsible for doing this to usmaybemaybeIm not worth being a part of the babys lifeHelena can definitely offer more than I canbutfuckthat woman is ***** crazy who am I to judge anywaydamn my head is so screwed up right nowjust take a deep breath (She takes a deep breath)

What the ***** is that smell? Oh ***** I forgot about the fooddamnme and my ***** temper!

As she quickly cleaned up the mess she hears a knock at the door ***** shes already heredamn the house smells She quickly opens a window and runs to open the door

Tina

Bette

Come inyou look great

Tina walks inIm not interested in your compliments Bette(Bette closes the door and Tina turns around to look at her) what is it that you need to talk to me about?

Bette was a little taken back by her strict tone

Ummwould you like anything to drink? Knowing she didnt have anything to eat, a drink was all she could offer

No, Im fineso what is it that you want to talk about?

I want to be a part of our baby girls life

Bette dont start

What am I starting? I just want to be her motheris that too much to ask?I know you dont want to see me, talk to me, I know youre still furious with me, but its not her fault

Youre right Bette its not her fault, but we wouldnt be in this predicament if you wouldnt have been ***** around with HER She still couldnt say her name.

***** Tina Im sorry (She sits on the couch) I wasnt thinkingI dont know what happen (She begins to cry) I love you Tina, I will spend the rest of my life making it up to youplease Tinalet me make it up to youlet me be a part of our babys lifelet us be a family

Not once did you ask me what I want Betteits always been like thatitll never change

Bette stands up, walks towards Tina, and looks deep into her eyes

What do you want? Even if it takes a life time I will give it to youwhat do you want Tee?

She looks down at her feet

I dont know

What happened to us T?Did I lose you Tina?

Tinas fury was beginning to build up again and she looked straight into Bettes eyes

You had nothing to lose

A small stream of tears fell from the corner of her eyes as she closed them. She replayed Tinas words in her mind You had nothing to lose. what the ***** happened to usshe looked at Tina

Okay

No matter how much Tinas words broke her heart, she cupped her face with her hands and kissed her forehead

Good bye

She walked to the bedroom and closed the door

Tina stood there as tears came streaming down her face I shouldnt have said thatfuck what the ***** happened to us? She quietly walked towards the door, took one last look around the house where love used to be in the midst of their lives and walked out…

TBC