Bette and Tina headed home. They left Tinas car in the hotel parking garage and rode home together in the Saab holding hands as Bette drove.

Tina finally broke the silence. I cant imagine that she has never wanted to know the results of the pregnancy test.

I can understand it. Bette replied. But, I guess I have a better understanding of living with guilt. I have a hard time, though, being able to fathom that much guilt.

Why cant she realize it wasnt her fault? Tina wondered.

In her mind, it always will be her fault. I guess I can kind of understand it, knowing that if you had just done one, minor insignificant thing differently, then something awful wouldnt have happened.

I wouldnt ever want you to feel that way. Tina said.

I think it is what I would have deserved Bette left the rest unsaid.

Look, Bette, if I ever go out to run an errand because you forgot it, I dont want you to throw away the rest of your life.

Alex didnt throw away her life.

She threw away a large part of it. She threw away the chance to love again, to have a baby with someone else. Just promise me that you wouldnt take that kind of action.

You know me, Tina. Im too self-absorbed to make so much sacrifice.

Im being serious, Bette.

I know you are, baby, but Im having a hard time with this topic. Can we just focus on happier thoughts?

Okay, but just remember that if something happens, I want you to be happy.

You too. Bette said as she lifted Tinas hand to her mouth placing a gentle kiss on Tinas palm.

They were quiet for the remainder of the drive and as they entered their house. Bette wondered how she would feel if she had been in Alexs position. Would she have parked outside of Marcus Allenwoods house for 2 days to see what Tinas daughter might have looked like? How would she have felt if Marcus had been relieved to hear that the baby died with Tina?

Bette knew that she had a lot of thinking to do. Alexs revelations gave her much to ponder about her best friend, herself, and her marriage.