Chapter 11

Tina did meant what she had just said but also fetl panic about Bette’s answer and what to do next.

Bette read perfectly Tina’s thoughts through her eyes and shyly approached the bed she sat in front of Tina still thinking about what to say.

After a moment.

Bette: (looking tenderly into Tina’s eyes) look. I also know I’ll regret leaving you in less than five minutes. But the fact is that I’ve spent the last five days thinking about you. Since Alice told me you were coming. I  don’t know why..

Tina: (interrupting Bette) wh yes I felt the same.for the last five days I haven’t been able to get you out of my head.. and

Bette: (putting her index finger softly on Tina’s lips this alone caused an electric shiver to run down her spine) shh let me finish then I met you and I was drown to you without even knowing your name and the next thing I know is that I’m kissing you and my whole world collapsed. And then Alice told me who you were and  I’m terrified but I can’t help this either and I don’t know how to name all this feelings because I don’t recall feeling them all together at the same time. And certainly not with women I’ve dated. And on the other hand I can’t ignore the fact that you’re not gay. So from where I stand those are the two obstacles to pass right now. And the only way to do that is by following our hearts.

Silence. Both of them staring intensly into each others eyes.

Bette: (taking Tina’s hands between hers) I guess that what I’m trying to say is that I’ve had lots of women and I’ve never felt like this with any of them.. and I want to get to know you. I don’t want another one night stand I want to take care of you learn everything there is to know about you and then take it from there and you need to figure out what is it that you want to do and if you dare to follow it. So that’s why I’m not going to tell you the number of my suite. I’m sure you will find it anyway if that’s what you want. Because you seem that kind of woman to me the kind that doesn’t stop until they get what they want. And always plays by the heart

Tina’s eyes were filled with tears. Not from pain. But from joy the joy of finding this outstanding woman who already cares about her and doesn’t push her or demands anything from her. But she also knew that those tears were from fear too to do the wrong thing and this is why she understood Bette’s decision.

So Bette stood up from the bed and kissed Tina’s forehead first and then looked into her eyes and gave her the softest and shortest kiss ever.

Bette: you’re so beatiful I’ll see you

Tina was unable to speak she had been melting for the last five minutes so much that she couldn’t even form a decent sentence in her head.

Bette went straight to the main deck to find the girls. And some answers too

It didn’t take her much time to find them

Shane: shit!

Alice: what?!

Shane: here comes the legend

Dana: well. At least I won a Grand Slam

Alice: fuck!

Awkward silence.

Bette: (sarcastically) Hello girls!!!

Shane: look Bette if you have to blame someone for this whole fiasco that should be me.

Bette: (surprised that it wasn’t Alice the one apologizing) explain please.

Shane: well Tina told me that she couldn’t get you out of her head since we talked about you. And you on the other hand told me the exact same thing so I was the one who brought you together. But my plan was to actually introduce you guys and well when I saw the fireworks between you two I couldn’t I just never thought that you wouldn’t introduce to each other and I swear to you that Alice and Dana had nothing to do with this

Alice: yeahh. And how could you not tell her you name? wh

All it took for Bette to make Alice shut up was to show her her well known "I swear I’ll break both your arms if you keep talking" face

Bette: ok okI believe you but I’m still mad at you guys (looking defeated)

Alice: why are you still mad at me? Shane just said I had nothing to do with any of this

Judging from Bette’s and Shane’s face Alice decided to leave it there. again.

Bette: ok I’ll be in my room. See you guys

Shane: wait you’re not coming to the dinner party.

Bette: mmm I don’t think so bye!

And as Bette was heading to her suite.

Dana: well. That wasn’t that bad.

Alice: (looking shocked) no. not at all and that could only mean one thing.

Shane: (before Alice could speak) look I’ve just apologized for interfering in her life let’s just leave them alone.

Dana: (looking at Alice) yes Shane’s right we have to let them do whatever they want.

Alice: (sarcastically) I know you’re right but this isn’t the Bette I know she didn’t shout at us for messing things up and she didn’t even mentioned Tina that’s odd

Shane: I know but it’s not our problem. Let’s just drop this here

Alice: ohh come one!! And now you decide to be your regular Yoda?!!

Shane: (laughing) let’s go. It’s dinner time

Tina’s room

Tina was more than restless she was pacing around her room thinking about everything and nothing at the same time

"What am I going to do.. this is all so. She is so beautiful and charming and protective I have to be fair to her. I can’t break her heart like I did with Eric’s. and I have to think about me my career my family oh god what would they say but I feel so good when I’m around her I can’t explain this I feel like I’ve known her forever I feel so safe and wanted everytime she looks at me oh yes I crave her I can’t deny that I want her so much but above all she makes me feel different special like there’s no one else in the entire universe but me and no one made me feel that way before hell I’m not going to solve anything being locked up in this room. Besides I have to find her."

Bette’s room

"I can’t take this anymore I can’t stand not knowing how this is going to end I can’t believe I left her room. Who am I?!! ok I have to calm down. I have to think and let her think. We have two whole weeks. But I’ll die if she says no if she doesn’t want to take the chance I’ll simply die. Fuck!! I’m screw. How did this happen?? I have to get out of here. I need a huge and strong amount of alcohol."

After serving dinner and lots of alcohol all the girls were wasted on their table listening to the string band playing old classics and thinking about what had happened during the day. When Bette appeared holding a drink and sat down at the table.  

Bette: hi!…. what’s up is this that boring?

Shane: no we’re just not enough drunk. Yet.

Bette: well why don’t we contribute to that. Cheers!!!

What Bette didn’t know was that Tina was standing right behind her.

Tina: and what are we toasting for?

Bette: (almost choking and turning around) wh.. ehhh to love

Tina: (holding a glass also) well. To love then.

Tina sat down they kept drinking and talking and after thirty minutes Alice and Dana excused themselves from the table and after that Shane did the same except that this time she did have a fine brunette excuse to do it

Right then Bette looked straight into Tina’s eyes. Not that she hadn’t been doing that for last half hour but this time it was different and Tina understood it and without even considering it she concentrated in all her feelings and in every way she was longing Bette at that moment.. and it happened.

Bette smiled that million dolar smile of hers

Bette: I’ll be right back wait here.

So Bette went to talk with one of the guys of the band and when she came back she extended her hand to Tina and said

Bette: would you make my dreams come true?

Tina: (already blushing) ok. (at least I’m sure of that much)

Bette led Tina to the center of the dance floor. And when the slow music began in a quick motion she put her hand around Tina’s waist and entwined her other hand with Tina’s moving Tina closer to her body. They were nearly touching.

Tina: (trying to think in something else than the proximity of Bette’s body) Which song is this? I don’t think I’ve ever heard it before.

Bette: (smiling mischevously) Yes you’ve never heard it before because it’s a bolero a different kind of slow music mostly heard all over South America I was lucky that one of the musicians is mexican. And knew the song

Tina: (looking into Bette’s eyes) you are a charmer, aren’t you?

Bette: yes. (pulling Tina even closer so now they were holding each other) do you want me to tell you the lyric of this song? (Tina nodded yes)

So Bette put her mouth brushing Tina’s ear and began to whisper as they moved slowly to the rhythm of the music.


 

Under the table

I brush your knee

And I drink sorbe by sorbe the angelical look of your eyes

And I breath from mouth

That flower of marvel

The larks of desire

Are singing and flying they come and go

And I’m dying for taking you

To the corner of my shelter

Where I hide a kiss

With the shade of an illusion

We are finishing our drinks

And I don’t know what to do

If I should hold my instincts back

Or if I should never let you go

It’s just that you don’t know how you make me feel

If you could for a minute

Be me

Perhaps you would melt

Within this fire of my blood

And you would live here

And me too, holding you

And it’s just that you don’t know how you make me feel

There’s not a moment

That I can  stand being without you

You absorve my space

And slowly make me yours

All my pride dies within me

And it’s just that I can’t be without you