How could she start a search with only those items?

She wanted to do it but she felt that it would be very insensitive of her because the Carpenters were really her family now and they have been very good and very nice to her.  They never made her feel like she was a stranger.  They loved her and doted on her and her brother Carlos junior as if they were their biological children and more.  They provided them with everything theyd ever needed and wanted and made sure that they both offered the chance to study what they loved making sure they were supported in every way until they both were graduated from university with honours degree   Sania didnt want to hurt or cause any chaos in their lives.  They were getting old and she couldnt upset them that way.  She didnt want to sound ungrateful or unappreciative.  She couldnt even suggest it to them even though she was sure that they would actually support her and try their best to help her find her biological mother or father.  But she just couldnt do that.  It was her mission in life and she didnt want to share it with anyone.  Anyway it would still be impossible because she wouldnt know where to start and she had no means to do it.

Sania cried every time she read her mothers letter.  She had so much anger inside of her and sadness.  She was lost without her roots.  She wanted so much to know where she belonged or where she’d come from.  She sometimes felt like ripping the letter to shreds and tearing the blanket to pieces.  She didnt want anything to remind her of her unknown past and the miserable life she’d lived before she was placed with the Carpenter’s.

Sania was moved from one foster family to another.  She was a very troubled child and showed all the classic signs of an abandoned child.  She was very difficult and violent on some occasions, she was an angry child.  She never stayed with one family for more than a year.  She caused a lot of bother and caused havoc in the neighbourhood everywhere she was placed.  She was a terror and her foster families couldnt understand her or cope with her.  Most of them wanted to send her back to the childrens house.