“*****,” she whispered. “It’s my night to cook,” she pondered and eyed the pantry intently.

Shane walked back to her bedroom where she saw Carmen scratching off another day on the calendar. “5 more days,” she mumbled to her self. She looked down at her list of things to do as Shane came up from behind her and wrapped her arms around her waist kissing her ently on the neck before nuzzling in.

“How long are you going to be gone?” Shane asked her peering over her shoulder at the calendar.

“About a week. Lots of things to do down there,” Carmen answered back. She placed the paper down and turned around to be full into Shane’s arms. “But I’ll be back and ready for a proper homecoming,” she went on kissing Shane as they both smiled.

“Ah you will will you?” Shane smiled throug their kissing.

“Yeah,” Carmen answered. The two of them heard clanking in the kitchen. “I see you told Jenny that Will’s coming for dinner,” Carmen rolled her eyes. Shane just shook her head and continued kissing her girl friend holding her so close paper couldn’t have slipped between them. She pulled the two of them back onto the bed, Carmen landing on top. “Oh Shane,” she said comically.

Shane grinned mischeivously as Carmen pinned her to the bed. “Oh god not that game,” Shane said with full smile. Carmen kissed down Shane’s neck before one of her hands dissapeared under Shane’s shirt.

The inside of the radiation tube reminded Kit of a coffin. Her father was gone. She remembered seeing his coffin. Was this how I was going to end up? 60% of patients had a chance of full recovery. Good odds she thought, but that was for type I and II. Kit watched as the lights passed over her, the metallic apron absorbing stray rays. She tried to close her eyes tightly and not think about the tube all around her. She tried not to think about the sheet thin gown she was dressed in or how cold the table was underneath her. The whole hospital smelled sterile and she felt that even in this sterile place only she could feel so unclean. So dirty. Covered in something she couldn’t see or et rid of no matter how hard she scrubbed. The light went over her again. It was always searchin, she thought, searching for something that I know is there I just can’t seem to get rid of.