But she knew it was too soon, it was not gonna happen in their current state and it should not happen in their current state. Timing was everything and they were both realizing it as their bodies were shivering with desire.

Bette broke the kiss first and rested her forehead against Tina’s, still with her eyes closed. She sighed heavily. Tina felt like her insides had melted and her lungs just could not catch up with her current need of oxygen.

“The things you do to me” Bette shyly admitted. A small smile formed on the blonde’s face.

Yale – 1997

Bette woke up in her dorm, it was clearly past noon and she was feeling like utter shit. She was sure she hadn’t brought anyone back with her or landed in anyone else’s bed, but she was quite sure she had drunk more than usual.

Her head was in pain, every single muscle of her body was screaming “don’t you dare moving”. But she knew she had to, she had to try and climb those stairs and talk to her friend.

Once she had gotten up and taken a shower she could almost pass for a relatively healthy person who wasn’t in the worst hangover of her life. Bette heard that familiar knocking at her door. Her heart stopped beating; she realized that once she would put this out there it would actually have to happen.

Somehow for Bette while telling Shane and Alice about her trip last night it hadn’t felt like her departure was gonna be anytime soon, but telling Tina it was a whole new deal… it felt real, very real, and very painful as well.

“Hey!” Was all Bette could mutter to her blonde friend.

“You look like shit” Tina said in a serious tone of voice while she entered that familiar, and yet unexplored in so many ways, territory that was Bette’s bedroom.

“Gee aren’t we cranky today…” Bette said defeated while closing the door. She slowly turned to face the blonde, afraid of what might come next with her in such a mood.

“I’m sorry Bette” Tina felt guilty all of the sudden, after all it wasn’t any of her business in what ways Bette decided to celebrate her Christmas.