Tina knew Bette better than anyone and yet this decision not only had broken her heart but had taken her completely by surprise.

Why is she doing this? Did she notice I… I have fallen in love with her and she’s running away from me? What the fuck Bette?… why can’t you see right through me now… why won’t you see right through me now… or perhaps you have and you are just not happy with what you see… I need some air…

“Well that’s great… I’m very happy for you… when are you leaving?” Tina said above a whisper trying with every bit of strength she possessed not to cry. She felt the air being knocked out of her lungs.

“In five days from now” Bette said lowering her eyes again.

Please don’t see right through me… please don’t or I’ll die… I could not handle your rejection T… I would simply not recover…

“Right… ok… oh shit… I forgot I was supposed to meet with Megan… I guess I should better go now…” Tina said slowly heading for the door not even attempting to make eye contact with Bette.

“Wait… what were you gonna tell me?” Bette felt the need to stop Tina from leaving.

“Oh… nothing… I… I was gonna ask you if you could borrow me that white top you bought the other day… I… I have this date tomorrow night…” Tina lied, she lied miserably. She had made the decision of not telling Bette anything after hearing what she had just heard, what was the point in that? She needed to stop this torture.

Bette felt her heart abandon her as well as whatever drop of air her lungs may still have had.

“Sure…” She went to open her drawer and removed the desired item and handed it to the blonde that was already by the door.

“Thanks… see you later then” Tina said not making any eye contact and quickly exiting the room.

They both spent their nights in their respective dorms, unable to do much of anything and feeling like in a catatonic state.

The days went by faster than usual; the girls had put together a “See you later” party, mainly because Alice had refused to call it “Good bye” party. Bette and Tina hadn’t had much contact since that talk in Bette’s bedroom and still maintained a cold distance throughout that party.