Alexa headed up to her room, head spinning.  Just when she thought it couldn’t be any harder to discuss the last few weeks with Rachel she put this on the table.

She opened her bedroom door and rolled her eyes at how untidy she’d left the place.  This place had been her home for years but it didn’t feel the same, her heart had always been in her home, in this room the keeper of her secrets but that role wasn’t filled by a place anymore it took the form of a person and she wasn’t here.  It was then that she remembered her promise to call and lay down on her bed, flipping open her phone.

‘Shit it’s three there,’ she realised but Helena could be waiting up so she had to call, besides she needed to hear her voice, check it hadn’t all been a dream.

‘Hey baby,’ said Helena sleepily when she heard her phone ring.

‘Hey sweetheart, I’m sorry to wake you.’

‘Don’t be, I’d only just given up on you.’

‘Well don’t ever do that, my flight was delayed.  You have a good day?’

‘Yeah, Alice and Tina came over.’

‘What did you guys do?’ she asked.

‘We talked about you a lot actually.’

‘Well I hope that’s a good thing,’ said Alexa.

‘Oh course it is,’ said Helena and yawned.

‘I should let you go Lena, we should both get some sleep.’

‘I wish you were here next to me,’ said Helena.

‘Aww..don’t say that, you’re making me want to hold you and I can’t.’

‘Come back and you can.’

 ‘Promise?’

‘Absolutely!  I love you Lexi.’

‘Love you too,’

Alexa lay awake on her bed for a long time, back in her old world, wondering how she would merge it with the new life she had found.  Things didn’t seem quite as simple as they had talked about in abstract in L.A, already there were unexpected and added complications.  She figured it was jet lag making everything seem this overwhelming, she hoped it was because the only thing she felt certain about right now was that she loved Helena.  But she couldn’t stop herself asking as she drifted off to sleep.  ‘Would love really be enough?’

NEXT TIME:  Rachel makes things even harder for Alexa and Helena finds that patience is not one of her virtues