Bette: “good to know…, so, you had girlfriends there…, in Texas…, then?”

Tina: “in college…? No…, I didn’t”

Bette: “well maybe in high school”

Tina has the side of her head reclined on the backrest looking at Bette while they were holding hands on the top of Tina’s thighs, the brunette was in the same position opposite to her, there were few silent seconds, the blonde was calculating her answer and containing her anxiety remembering why she stopped having girlfriends, finally she found her voice.

Tina: “I…, I really didn’t have girlfriends since I was 12”

Bette felt a tremor in the voice and saw a painful shadow on the eyes of the girl and decided to be cautious in her words

Bette: “well…, but it doesn’t mean you have had no sexual experience, right?”

Tina: (looking down and almost smiling) “well…, I don’t know what else that could mean…, unless I was abducted by aliens and it happened when I was unconscious”

Now Bette was flabbergasted, this is really huge…, no that she cares much that the blonde is virgin, but the fact that she is here with her, she came to her, she is so beautiful and she is wearing those clothes for her, is more thrilling because it means this is the first time for Tina, and she chose Bette to show herself in the way she hasn’t done before, even though it is clear she isn’t used to dressing in such bold way; an electrical pulse ran through Bette’s body thinking in all the things she could do with her, she could teach her she could make her feel, she could share with her…, damn, Bette, don’t lose your control now.

Bette: (openly smiling) “are you serious?”

Tina: (smiling too) “about the aliens?”

Bette: (laughing) “no…, about the rest”

Tina was red-faced, looking down at their hands when she felt the soft squeeze of Bette’s; then she raised her head.

Tina: “yes I’m pretty serious”

Bette: “good…, Tina…, I want us to be friends…, I was observing you… and I feel that you are not only smart… but kind…, I really like you…, I want to be your special friend, to be here for you, whenever you need me…”

Now Bette is stopping her voice, thinking ‘oh shit, this was too much, why do I lose my common sense with her’; on the other seat, Tina was overwhelmed, she has been very attracted by the brunette since the first day, she admires her, she wants to be ‘normal’ with her, to have her approval, to be someone in her life, to be close to her, whatever that means, even if it were for a short time, she just wants to pick up the crumbs of attention and affection that fall from the warm and generous heart of the brunette, who now is telling her that she wants to be her special friend, and wants to be available for whatever and  whenever she needed her; and Tina needs someone pretty soon, because all the memories of her childhood are suffocating her, all her needs for communication, for friendship, for love are drowning her in the darkness of her sorrow and low self-esteem; Tina lifts Bette’s hand and rubs it on her face, but wasn’t able to hold her gaze, Bette leans on her and kisses slowly her forehead, taking her time looking into Tina’s eyes.