I remember how judgmental I use to be of others. I never had any mercy or empathy on them but now I find myself in a position when I have done things much worse than some of the things they did and I cut them out of my life for it Tina.”

“How can you truly love someone like me and trust me around your daughter? I hurt you so badly in the past and look at me now; I have nothing. I have been with so many people men and women that not only do I not remember their name, I don’t remember their faces. I have done terrible things for money to buy drugs Tina. There is probably not one sexual act I have not done for the right money. Then there are the drugs Tina. I have put everything from coke to heroin to crack in my body. I have been so high I did not know where I was, who I was with, or who I was Tina. So how can you honestly say that you find something good in me that you love? How can you love me when I can’t even love myself?”

“Bette, I came to realize after we broke up and I left… that you were not the only one responsible for the affair or our relationship. And it was not the single reason that we broke up. Bette we were having real problems before that we just chose to ignore them. Good God Bette it went for weeks I would not touch you and not let you touch me. I closed myself off from you in my grief. Bette you are human and were grieving too. Your body craved touch and attention and when you didn’t get it from me you went outside of our relationship for it Bette.

Bette you have been paying for the mistakes we both made for a long time now. It’s time to let it go Bette…don’t you think you have paid enough…forgive your self because I already did.”

“But Tina look at my life it is a mess. Hell when I see someone looking at me for a little too long out on the street my mind quickly begins trying to recall, if I have been with them and when I can’t remember the shame takes over real quick. I can’t even look them in the eyes.”