– If you want me to be honest, when I wrote that I didn’t mean it, but ever since I left your place, I can’t stop but… uhm I do wanna to call you – Shane said

– At least you’re honest – said Carmen looking at the ground

– Hey, hey, don’t – Shane said lifting Carmen’s chin so their eyes were leveled – look im really fucked up, you were amazing god, it was soo amazing, but I don’t do relationships…- she said pulling from Carmen’s face a tuft – what do you think if we start again…..-

– Haha, ok, I guess, uhm, hi? Im Carmen – she said smiling

– hey Carmen, im Shane – she said smiling back at Carmen

– So, now that we’re going to be friends, why don’t you tell me bout you? –

– Well actually there’s no much to said – said Shane sipping her beer

– Oh common I’ve heard all kind of stories bout you, it has to be something –

– Ok, uhm, im bad at this, uhm, I just finished college, I studied business so I couldn’t get my family off my back– she said sighing – and I’ve no idea what to do now, my family wants me to run the family’s company– she added forcing a smile

– Oh your family, ok, but, what do YOU want to do? – asked Carmen playing with Shane’s hair

– I…I…I-I don’t know – Shane said with a confuse look – I don’t know, what I want, or what do I believe in, or, who am I…- Shane said the last part under her breath – I mean all my life, I’ve been trying soooo hard for be who I am  no matter what or who, but lately….I’ve been feeling really tired, of all, tired to keep swimming against flow, and im starting to think that Its just better if you just let the flow drag you –she said with resignation