Part 26

The escape… in the mirror

I went by taxi to the Planet at Saturday night. I have been dressing and redressing for hours until I had finally found the right outfit. Something strange happened on the way. I suddenly had such an amusing feeling. I can’t exactly tell from where it came and where it just as suddenly disappeared. It was, as you would be completely close to me. Well, I think, this car was the trigger.

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As we were waiting at a traffic light a car drove by. It looked exactly the same like yours and it had probably released these feelings in me. Every time I saw a car like yours, I thought, perhaps you’d come finally home now. I often drove home very fast too in order to wait for you there. Again and again I went to bed disappointed, because you weren’t.

But today, today it was different. I felt, that I did not have to get home, I knew, if you were actually here, you would wait for me at home. I would enter our house and would simply look at you. You would ask me how my night was and if I had enjoyed myself. And I would tell you of the night and our friends. And I would of course tell you about Al, the marmot, and we would have so much of laughter until we would probably fall asleep for exhaustion. At the next morning I would wake up with the certainty that you still lie by my side, with the fact that you would affectionately have laid your arm around me and snuggled tightly to me. Your „Good morning!” would give me a smile. How very much I missed this. „Tina, you didn’t ask me, where I have been?” „And I won’t.” And then you begin to tell…

When I left the taxi, I was perfectly calm. And more, I looked forward this evening, I’m finally happy to see our friends again, to have fun with them and perhaps even a little dance or, as Shane would say, “To have a good time!“ Exactly, I wanted to have a good time surrounded of those, who love me and who I love.

When I entered the Planet, there were not many people. I thought it very pleasant, because I could greet all our friends quiet, without hearing the shouting or being bumped all the time. Everyone was there, Alice, Dana, Shane with new girlfriend, Jenny, Kit. I was welcomed so warmly as I had not experienced for a long time. "It’s nice that you are here. I have missed you." said Shane and kissed me on my cheek. Kit had tears in her eyes, spread out her arms and embraced me tightly. I whispered "I know, I know." into her ear. "Hey, hey, hey, now don’t crush her immediately." Al pushed Kit to the side and laid her protecting arm around me. Alice acted like she wanted to introduce everyone there. "Jenny, Shane, Carmen." with hand protectively held in front of her mouth she whispered to me "This is the Shane’s new flame." "Dana, Kit and …" she pointed several times with her forefinger at herself "… you know: the marmot." "Hello, nice to see you, how are you?" Jenny greeted me. "I am fine, really, really fine." Dana looked at me with a doubtfully asking look. "Really, Dana. I just had to make a few decisions. So easy was it." "… and one of them was to spend the evening with us. Well …" Shane raised her glass: "For a good time!" Kit quickly pushed a glass of wine into my hand. The tinkle of the glasses was like music for me, and more, it was like a bell in a store which announced that a visitor was there. It rang in a new beginning and I was in the middle of them and even with you.