Believe me when I say that you have filled my every thought and action for the past 10 years. Your beautiful eyes and smile are still as clear in my mind as they were then. The sweet smell of your skin and the sound of your voice. Dana as hard as I’ve tried I’m not over you. This trip would have been made a whole lot easier if I was. I go to bed thinking of you, wake up thinking of you and every other second in between is filled with you. I don’t allow the girls to talk about you because its just too hard. All I need to know is that your ok and even hearing that hurts. Im sorry I didn’t know you and Lara broke up, it’s a shame because she was good for you and you her. There has been no-one special in my life from you and I doubt there ever will be. I gave you my heart and soul a long time ago and they’ll be forever yours.

I don’t know what you wanted from me when you wrote the letter. Was it closure or to make peace, I don’t know. If you want more do you think we can get back what we had?. Will I become jealous and insecure again?. Dana I love you with all my heart but I don’t think I could go through all of that again. 10 years is a long time and maybe we wont feel the same. Maybe we are holding onto the past to keep us from moving on. I have survived 10 years with out seeing you and I worry that if I do meet with you, that I’ll go back to square one. I want to tell you that we cant meet up again, but my heart is telling me different. I need answers to those questions and I need to see your beautiful face again.

If you want to, meet me at the planet on Friday at 12. I will give Shane this letter and you can tell her if you accept.

Dana, I have always loved you and even though I found it hard to see that you loved me I know its true. My heart wouldn’t be so broken if you didn’t. Im not exactly sure were this is going but I need to find out once and for all.

Forever yours, Alice. *****