“It was never the baby Tina, I wanted him as much as you did.” pleaded Bette.

“No Bette, maybe you were right all along. Maybe we weren’t ready to have a baby together. Maybe we were just using it as a reason to paper over the cracks. I mean, you were asking me to try again while you were in the midst of your torrid little affair and to think I told you I would take care of you if you fell apart, how naive must I have been because you were already being taken care of by someone else, weren’t you Bette?” said Tina with a venom in her voice that was laced with a deep hurt that was palpable to Bette.

“It was never like that. It was just….”

“Don’t say it was just ***** Bette. Can’t you see that makes it worse, it just cheapens everything we were.”

“I’m sorry Tina. Please, I just need to explain. I know it won’t make things right between us but…I wanted so much to give you the things that you needed and I thought that if we tried again that would bring us back together, it would give us something to look forward to. I wanted, so desperately, to put the show behind me and get back to my life. Turns out I had already gone to far, I’ll never get that life back now.” By now Bette was only just keeping it together but she knew that she didn’t have the right to cry.

“No matter what happens, neither of us will ever have that life back Bette. We hurt each other too much for that to ever be the case, not after….Bette?”

“Yes, T.”

“I’m sorry for hitting you.”

“For what I did, I deserved it.”

“But I bit you too. I’ve never been more ashamed of anything I’ve ever done but I was in so much pain I wanted you to feel that kind of pain too. Bette, what we did to each other that night, it was so wrong, it was…” Tina trailed off, knowing she was leading the conversation into dangerous territory for both of them.

“I know Tina. Sometimes I replay it in my mind and I barely recognised myself. What I did to you, pushing you onto the bed, ripping your dress. It was like I was being driven by some outside force that I couldn’t control but I had to get you to understand that I loved you and that I was sorry. I never would have…I didn’t know what I was doing, I needed you, like I knew it was going to be the last time.”