But maybe the thing that was more important than that to me, was that she also confided in me. She also told me what was going on in her head, how she felt about matters.

She was intelligent and we could talk for hours about music, books, movies. Our tasts were different, but still. She was an amazing person. I knew she had her flaws, but so has everyone.

Tina had moved in with me and we were so happy together. I now saw how horrible my relationship with Cassie was. Things would never get like that with Tina. I sometimes still wondered how I had coped with my former partner for all those years.

My dad didn’t disapprove of me being gay any longer and Kit was great about Tina and me. So, everything was great. Sunshine all over the place. And still, I missed something, but what?

I was there to find that out and I wasn’t planning on leaving before I had. What was it that gave me this feeling of… not being completely fulfilled, completely satisfied? It was like my life was one big puzzle of 1000 pieces and 999 of them were all perfectly fitting into place, but only one was missing. Which one?

I went over and over it again. Something… but what? I thought about the lives of my friends, but there wasn’t anything that they had and I hadn’t. In fact, I felt like I had more. But they’d probably feel the same about me.

I was in no position to complain. Communication with Tina was just… wonderful. So… what was it?

I looked at the stars, as if they would give me an answer. They gave me friendly smiles, but nothing more. The sea was calm and the sound of it gave me piece. Looking around, I could see the lights of the city. I felt one with my environment.

Feeling one was something I knew, something I knew with Tina. It was as I was looking at the peer that it struck me. It just hit me, out of nothing, I didn’t know where it came from, but I knew immediately that that was it.

I wanted a baby with Tina. With a happy smile on my face I jumped up to go back home and talk to her about it. I didn’t mind waking her up because it was so important.

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TK narration

It was very late and I was tired. I felt a headache coming up, but chose to ignore it. My view got blurry and my eyes tended to close themselves, but I had to stay awake. My head was getting heavier, I felt like I would fall asleep at the spot.

I didn’t see the truck coming. It seemed to come out of nowhere, way too fast, and my reactions were slowed down by my tiredness. The truck hit me with a smack and everything went black.

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BP narration

I switched my phone on and saw I had a lot of missed calls of Tina. I felt bad, I should’ve called her after all. I was about to do that when the phone rang. To my surprise, I saw it was Alice.

“Hello?”

“Bette? It’s Al. You have to come home, right now.”

“Why? Has something happened?”

“It’s Tina. I don’t know exactly. The police just came here to see if anyone of her family was home. She had an accident, it doesn’t look good. She was looking for you.”

“Holy shit.”