“But you know, she keeps hoping that you tell her that you’re in love with her. She’s still waiting, Shane and that hurts, too. You owe her an honest answer. I know, that it’s not easy for you to tell her the truth, but it’s unfair to her.”

“Yeah…I guess you’re right.”, I said sadly.

Carmen’s POV

I decided to go to the grocery store since I saw the content of the fridge. There was nothing inside that Shane likes.
I charged the shopping cart with her favorite cereals, coffee and beer, a lot of beer. When I was looking for some milk I saw Alice with Tasha.

“Hey, Carmen! Oh, that’s a lot of beer. Are you planning a secret party?”, she asked.

“Hey, you two. No, I’m not having a party. I’m just buying some stuff for Shane.”, I told her laughing.

“Really? …I see…”, she said blinking at me.

I thought that she would say something but instead she gave me that look. Tasha looked at me and then at Alice. She noticed the tension between us.

“Alice, I’m going to search the salad, alright? See you later. Bye, Carmen.”, she said.

“Bye, Tasha.”, I said.

Alice kept looking at me.

“What?”, I asked.

“Oh, nothing. Did Shane ask you to buy that stuff for her?”, she asked.

“No, she’s at home, sleeping. I saw that there was nothing in the fridge she liked, and since I had nothing to do I thought I could do her a favor by going to the grocery store for her. Because…that’s what good friends do for each other, Alice. “, I said self-confidently.

“Uh huh. Hey, I have to go. Tasha is waiting. Don’t forget the whipping cream for tonight, alright? Oh and maybe you should buy some strawberries, too. I’m pretty sure that’ll heat Shane up. It always works with Tasha.“, she said grinning.

I placed my hands at my heaps shaking my head pretending to be shocked, but I had to laugh, I couldn’t help it. When I saw the whipped cream at the shelf I looked at it, thinking for a moment. But I shook my head and left the store.
When I arrived at Shane’s house I saw an old Cadillac parking in front of it. I took the bags and went inside.
Suddenly I saw Paige. My heart stood still for a moment. I looked at both of them.

“I’m sorry…I didn’t mean to interrupt you.”, I said turning away.

“No, it’s okay. You didn’t interrupt anything. I was going to leave, anyway.”, Paige said sadly.

I turned around to look at Shane and I could see that they must have had a fight or something like that, since Shane was looking at the ground. She always does that when things get fucked up.
Paige left without saying anything else. I took a seat next to Shane. She smiled weakly at me.

“I told her that I’m not in love with her. I didn’t want to hurt her, but I had to tell her the truth.”, she said.

“Telling her the truth, that’s the best thing you could do for her, Shane.”, I told her.

“I know…I didn’t mean to hurt her, but I did. Why am I such a fucked up person who hurts everybody’s feelings?”, she said desperately.

Maybe because you’re the most lovely and sexy person of the world whom everybody falls for, but nobody can have. Yeah, I think, that’s why you hurt everybody, Shane. I went through this shit once.

“Hey…you just don’t love her, you can’t control your feeling, okay? That’s not your fault.”, I said, trying to cheer her up.

It was an ironical situation. I knew exactly how Paige felt now, as I was in the same position as she was. I would have told her that somehow she’ll get over it and that she’s not the first girl, whom Shane breaks the heart in that way. And she’ll surely not be the last.
It reminded me of how I felt, when Shane left me and that’s when I realized, that Shane would never change. I shouldn’t hope for her being able to love somebody back one day. That’s why nothing is going to happen between the two of us. She can be the most loyal friend but she’s a lousy partner.

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