At the Planet in Kit’s office

Shane kneels in front of Carmen who is sitting at a sofa. She still has her hands on Carmen’s knees, to calm her down. They keep silent for a long moment and stare at each other. The fact that Carmen feels so miserable breaks Shane’s heart. She knew that she had to give Carmen an explanation for what she did, but she didn’t expect it to be so hard. When Carmen stops crying Shane tries to explain her behaviour and to justify her decisions.

Shane: “Carmen…I know that you hate me right now. I know that my words may not mean anything to you, but I want you to know, that I didn’t leave you because I didn’t love you anymore… I left you because I’m afraid of not being able to give you what you want. I was scared… I’m still scared… I’m scared of hurting you again.”

While Shane talks her eyes fill with tears and she becomes more and more quiet, so that Carmen has to listen very carefully to understand what Shane tells her.

Shane: “I didn’t want you to regret our marriage. What if I married you and after one or two years I cheat on you. Would you still believe in true love? I know that marriage is sacred to you. I didn’t want to destroy this belief. That’s why I left you…”

It takes Carmen a little moment to digest what Shane just told her. After leaving Canada she kept telling herself that Shane didn’t love her anymore, but right now Shane gives her the impression that she lied to herself.

Carmen: “You are not your father Shane. You two are two different persons and the fact that your father cheated on his wife doesn’t mean that you would have done the same to me.”

That’s all Carmen handles to say. Without turning around she stands up to leave the office. Shane stays in the office and doesn’t know what to do now. She doesn’t know if Carmen is right. She doesn’t know what she feels about Paige. Everything she knows is that she still has feelings for Carmen. All this thoughts drive her crazy. For a moment she thinks about getting drunk but then she thinks about Shay. She doesn’t want him to see his sister drunk and sleeping with a strange girl, but she doesn’t want him to see her in this state either. Shay has become the most important person in Shane’s life since she came back from Canada. She doesn’t want to disappoint him, she doesn’t want to be weak in front of him, so she decides to stay in Kit’s office until her tears dry instead of going home.