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The first week of school was over with and Josh was excited. He loved school. He talked very animatedly about all of his new friends and his teacher, Miss. Kent, whom he loves already. I was very pleased that school was fun for him. He was very smart and school came easy for him. Almost like me, I had an easy time in school, but I got into a lot of trouble. Hopefully Joshua will not be like me in that sense.

My movie was going well, great in fact. Things ran smoothly and hopefully we’ll be done shooting in about three or four months. After that, fall and winter will be upon us and the editing process will begin. I have no scheduled shoots until after the first of the year, so I’ll be able to find Bette. Bette. I loved the sound of her name. I was brought out of my reverie by the sound of my phone.

"Hello darling," I heard as soon as I picked up.

"Hey Hel, what’s up?"

"I’ve missed you sweetheart, I need to see you."

"Helena, we just saw each other at the office a couple hours ago," I said, rolling my eyes.

"That was different darling, I was your boss then. It was work. I want to see you so I can be your boss in the bedroom," she said lustfully.

"I can’t tonight Hel, I have Josh and Angus isn’t here today."

"Angus, I don’t see how you have a male nanny."

"He’s good with Josh and he’s good for him," I said getting annoyed, "he needs that male figure in his life."

"Alright Tina no need to get snippy. How about tomorrow night?"

"Fine Helena, I’ll see if Angus is available."

Helena was full of surprises that night. She had a town car come pick me up and she made reservations at Hales, a very nice restaurant. I met her at the table and she stood and kissed me. The waiter pulled my chair out and I sat.

We ordered our dinner, and talked. She had already ordered an appetizer and wine, she was good at picking out a good wine. As she talked my mind kept wandering. She was on my mind a lot lately. Why, I don’t know, but I would soon find her. Our dinner arrived and we ate in silence, both of our minds working overtime. Mine on Bette and hers on I don’t know what.

"Do you love me," Helena asked suddenly.

"Of course," I said, put off.

"I do love you very much, and I would like to make a home for you and Joshua. And I can’t wait for you to bear my children, I’d love to see you pregnant."

"Wait, what," I asked, she’s moving way too fast for me.

"I know, that’s not gonna be for a while," she said, where is she going with this, "And I can’t imagine spending my life without you."

"Oh," I said, oh fuck! No! She can’t ask.

"Christina Kennard, I do believe you are the love of my life," she said getting up and kneeling infront of me, catching the gaze of all the other restaurant patrons.

"Oh my God," I said, no this can’t be happening!!

"Will you marry me?"

The words ran through my head slowly. Reverberating in my skull. Marry me. Marry me. No, this isn’t how it was supposed to go. I was supposed to find Bette, I was supposed to be with her. No, this isn’t right. My words escaped me, as she looked into my eyes, I didn’t know how to answer. How do I get out of this one? To where do I escape?